i don't wanna grow up... and you can't make me
I am having a bad night.
I am stressed about roommates and apartments and student loans and calculus and it is all so silly, but I can't just... not think about it. School starts in a week, and I am no closer to moving out than I was a month ago.
And my aunt is driving me crazy, criticizing and patronizing me... the latest issue is how bad I am at saving money, but may I pur-lease draw attention to the fact that:
(A)I don't make a lot of money. I work in retail.
(B)I spend loads of money on rent, food, gas, and my phone bill.
(C)I save as much as I can.
(D)I just paid loads and loads of money on my car.
(E)I didn't work for five weeks this summer, which adds up to a lot of money that I never had to save.
(F)I had to spend a lot of money on my sister when she was here (not least of all gas money bringing her back and forth to Boston)
(G)I work my butt off, am constantly stressed about money, and if I want to spend a wee bit on myself every now and then (and by that, I mean, ooh, maybe a new pair of shoes because hey, I can't wear flip flops to work. And P.S., my parents haven't bought me clothes since I got my first real job at age 14, and jeans and work clothes are hella expensive, even with my discount), I think I fucking deserve it.
(H)Thanks, I have a mother to criticize and patronize me and lecture me about money and, you know what, she doesn't do any of those things.
Very frustrated.
Also, I really, really want to get an apartment, and my potential roommates are not really helping things along. I really wanted to move out by August 1, which has passed, and seeing as it is currently August 21, I don't see September 1 happening either.
School starts on Monday and I still need to get a new parking permit and buy my books, and... I don't even know.
All I want is to go to Cape Cod with Allz for the weekend and not have to deal with any of this stuff for just a little longer.
I'm tired. Need sleep. Will be less cranky tomorrow.
I am stressed about roommates and apartments and student loans and calculus and it is all so silly, but I can't just... not think about it. School starts in a week, and I am no closer to moving out than I was a month ago.
And my aunt is driving me crazy, criticizing and patronizing me... the latest issue is how bad I am at saving money, but may I pur-lease draw attention to the fact that:
(A)I don't make a lot of money. I work in retail.
(B)I spend loads of money on rent, food, gas, and my phone bill.
(C)I save as much as I can.
(D)I just paid loads and loads of money on my car.
(E)I didn't work for five weeks this summer, which adds up to a lot of money that I never had to save.
(F)I had to spend a lot of money on my sister when she was here (not least of all gas money bringing her back and forth to Boston)
(G)I work my butt off, am constantly stressed about money, and if I want to spend a wee bit on myself every now and then (and by that, I mean, ooh, maybe a new pair of shoes because hey, I can't wear flip flops to work. And P.S., my parents haven't bought me clothes since I got my first real job at age 14, and jeans and work clothes are hella expensive, even with my discount), I think I fucking deserve it.
(H)Thanks, I have a mother to criticize and patronize me and lecture me about money and, you know what, she doesn't do any of those things.
Very frustrated.
Also, I really, really want to get an apartment, and my potential roommates are not really helping things along. I really wanted to move out by August 1, which has passed, and seeing as it is currently August 21, I don't see September 1 happening either.
School starts on Monday and I still need to get a new parking permit and buy my books, and... I don't even know.
All I want is to go to Cape Cod with Allz for the weekend and not have to deal with any of this stuff for just a little longer.
I'm tired. Need sleep. Will be less cranky tomorrow.