I'm not just a block of wood taking up a space on earth. I'm a thinking block of wood.
It's early in the morning right now. I can feel the burning sensation at my stomach due to hunger. I don't want to sleep.. I have much to say.
After a long discourse with a friend (I choose not to reveal his/her name), many thoughts and feelings are incited in this conversation. Although, much of these contemplations cannot be verbalize.. or just that I lack the eloquence to put it down with words. Well, how do you feel about life and death? Is life the commencer of death, or is life the events in between the start and end? I don't mean to sound offensive.. but I think many teenagers at our age fail to wonder about subjects such as this. Maybe we're not ready to create our own solution to these questions because we do not have enough experiences to make out these answers and that might cause us to erroneous thinking which might be harmful to ourselves (it can happen).. or thinking about these things make us potential dilettantes of something much more profound. Nevertheless, I think we should have a mind of our own.
That brings about another thing that I was quite ponderous about. What makes a person 'right'? I mean, how can you really tell? Everything that makes up the rights and separate from the wrongs have been standardized. Who is to tell us that the 'right' way to do things is really the proper way to go about it? Everything that we know now and accept has been from a consensus. I know there's no such matter of subject where everyone is shifted to one side. Well, don't try to argue that with something like.. say you're white and you try to argue that you're black, so you're on one side. Don't be stupid. Though, I do believe that sometimes, you will be standing alone. And you will be making a choice that will either send you to lose your life triumphant or save it in exchange for your integrity. How do you know that what you believe obdurately about is worth dying for? What if.. you really die worthlessly? But.. does a subject that has been believed by the majority enough to be accounted as right? Isn't that how the world runs afterall.. ?
Sometimes, I see people blaming others because they're not well-liked. "He just can't stand me because he finds my beliefs threatening.." "She doesn't like me because I have better grades.." If so many people find you completely egregious and they'd love to kick your ass.. isn't it time for you to have a reality check and maybe stop being so fucking pretentious? But then.. if you do so.. are you implying that you're malleable and easily manipulated by the world around you.. which makes you trivial.. and which makes you a.. not compelling person because you're so fucking mundane that knowing you is the same is not knowing you? Well, in that case.. I'd rather the world to forget me than to be engraved in everyone's mind that I'm an ostentatious asshole.
Like I said.. I have much to say, but I don't know how to say it. I'll end it here. One last thing.. many people write to impress their readers. Well, if you think I only wrote this to impress.. I think you should know that you're pretty shallow for you have no opinion about all these questions I included in this entry.. but to have read all this just to judge me.. That's ignorance. However, if you think everything that I've written is just stupid bullshit, I congratulate you to have a mind of your own.. and you might just be one of those condescending jackasses that I've mentioned earlier. :P Haha.. sorry for being sarcastic.. think what you want, criticize me. Have a nice life.
After a long discourse with a friend (I choose not to reveal his/her name), many thoughts and feelings are incited in this conversation. Although, much of these contemplations cannot be verbalize.. or just that I lack the eloquence to put it down with words. Well, how do you feel about life and death? Is life the commencer of death, or is life the events in between the start and end? I don't mean to sound offensive.. but I think many teenagers at our age fail to wonder about subjects such as this. Maybe we're not ready to create our own solution to these questions because we do not have enough experiences to make out these answers and that might cause us to erroneous thinking which might be harmful to ourselves (it can happen).. or thinking about these things make us potential dilettantes of something much more profound. Nevertheless, I think we should have a mind of our own.
That brings about another thing that I was quite ponderous about. What makes a person 'right'? I mean, how can you really tell? Everything that makes up the rights and separate from the wrongs have been standardized. Who is to tell us that the 'right' way to do things is really the proper way to go about it? Everything that we know now and accept has been from a consensus. I know there's no such matter of subject where everyone is shifted to one side. Well, don't try to argue that with something like.. say you're white and you try to argue that you're black, so you're on one side. Don't be stupid. Though, I do believe that sometimes, you will be standing alone. And you will be making a choice that will either send you to lose your life triumphant or save it in exchange for your integrity. How do you know that what you believe obdurately about is worth dying for? What if.. you really die worthlessly? But.. does a subject that has been believed by the majority enough to be accounted as right? Isn't that how the world runs afterall.. ?
Sometimes, I see people blaming others because they're not well-liked. "He just can't stand me because he finds my beliefs threatening.." "She doesn't like me because I have better grades.." If so many people find you completely egregious and they'd love to kick your ass.. isn't it time for you to have a reality check and maybe stop being so fucking pretentious? But then.. if you do so.. are you implying that you're malleable and easily manipulated by the world around you.. which makes you trivial.. and which makes you a.. not compelling person because you're so fucking mundane that knowing you is the same is not knowing you? Well, in that case.. I'd rather the world to forget me than to be engraved in everyone's mind that I'm an ostentatious asshole.
Like I said.. I have much to say, but I don't know how to say it. I'll end it here. One last thing.. many people write to impress their readers. Well, if you think I only wrote this to impress.. I think you should know that you're pretty shallow for you have no opinion about all these questions I included in this entry.. but to have read all this just to judge me.. That's ignorance. However, if you think everything that I've written is just stupid bullshit, I congratulate you to have a mind of your own.. and you might just be one of those condescending jackasses that I've mentioned earlier. :P Haha.. sorry for being sarcastic.. think what you want, criticize me. Have a nice life.