must've missed the transition!
Another friday down and it's been 9 weeks at school.
I breezed through today fine and i didn't realise that by the end of this loong friday, so many assignments have come my way! didn't even have time to realise.
Anyway, my sem break ended well because i did get to go to east coast in the end! Chris and i headed up to the east in 966 (which is really not a bad bus ride) and cycled in the cloudy weather and a little bit of rain. but it was every bit pleasant. I was so happy and satisfied. heh. glad we went. thanks for going girl :)
The following week still had no ballet but i completed my lit essay and was putting off contacting my fyp organisations. So very quickly, the first wk of sch after term break ended v quickly. And then i spent the weekend with swee's family in genting!
just enjoying the nice cold air, walking around the shopping centre for four hours, drinking lotsa coffee for tea, and breakfast, and eating cookies!
And i pretty much slacked this week away too. was getting a lil worried if my bumming would mark e demise of this sem's grades.. ah well. but friday ends on a heavier note and i now have a list of things to do that i feel good about! midway thru e wk i was still feeling hesitant to make phone calls to organisations and the readings i did just didnt seem to sink into my head. Had ballet on monday night but i no longer have tuition on tuesday nights now. anyway, i took time to go running when got nth else to do. it's good anyway =)
Then i read an email by my proj partner and was jolted back to reality so i quickly made those relevant phone calls during my long break today.
As for the assignments i now have on hand:
-after morning class: Science poster proj meeting on monday
-after afternoon class: Design a newspaper front page - send an email to my mates by saturday
-Follow up on fyp organisations (now that i've started, i don't feel the inertia anymore.. feeling excited abt it now instead ;) )
- continue with readings for media law
and well, nothing for lit yet. uhm unless i get started on reading 'the tempest'.
And today during my long break, i finally went to find out how much was tuition fees at NAFA. yea.. i find myself thinking more about my days after graduation (All that's left is to complete my fyp, and 4 more modules and the upcoming exams in nov.). i also keep thinking about some 'variables' i want in my life even then.
I've been wondering what i should do..
(just to share, pls note that in sharing the following ideas, it is my wish that they be subject to confidentiality.
(heheh..learnt in media law class tt u should say when u mean sth to be confidential if not if it spreads, it won't be in your advantage to win a legal case where there's breach of confidence)
ok number one, i am young so technically, the future does await me! i can choose anyway i want my career to be. i can do anything! once released from ntu. hoho..
my friend also asked me what i want to do after i graduate. some of my peers are looking at post grad courses.. others gg out to work. i guess i belong to the latter group. (unless..)
Well, we all know it's always been my dream to be able to study DANCE for all that it is. i realised DANCE is something you NEED to do when you are young and you can't delay it. so i guess whatever dreams/plans i have, i must shelve it all for my dance education to continue seriously.
I remember at one ttf session, dn ivan asked around the table what were our wants/ goals in life. at that point of time, i was still very mesmerised with the chance to be able to dance ballet again. i was all caught up in the 'ballet world' phase again so i uttered that i would 'just like a taste of studying dance to know what it feels like to be a full-time dance student' who gets to pull up into pink tights and leotards everyday as uniform..
Never really considered it carefully though... maybe i didn't dare to (but it's silly cos this is abt the only thing i always have on my mind! weirdly enough).
Then life got busier in the following months and i felt a little lazy at ballet and i skipped classes here and there.. and then eventually went a mth w/o ballet in july. then i came back and tried to fall back into routine again. just as i was easing well into it, classes were disrupted for up to three weeks cos of F1 (end sept to early oct)
So to date, it was three wks w/o ballet. in tt time, altho i felt happy at the break, i still tried to keep up w moderate exercise and jogs also to get the 'high feeling' and 'kick' outta the exertion. And i thought that was all..
Till i finally went back to ballet last monday and the feeling i got after class was So Much better than e high after a jog. it wasn't the same!
On monday, it occurred to me to promise myself to always stick to ballet from now on till forever.. after the second chance this yr.. i shldn't go away from it like i did in 07-08. it was like two lost yrs. but it also showed me how much ballet means to me.
So if anyone asks me what i want to do after i graduate? well, my heartfelt answer is that i want to try dancing. the same hope i had after 'O' levels and 'A' levels. but didn't have the guts to pursue cos im stuck in e singapore education rat race.
But in a few more months, After i finally have a valid degree, i can go and pursue my real interest. and age is catching up w me.
Yet i've never imagined a dancing education for myself. being in singapore, dancing doesn't look so achievable. everyone who is serious has to train in ballet schools in US, UK, Australia/New Zealand or BeiJing/ Hong Kong. i never see myself going so far.
The only option available in singapore is NAFA or La-Salle. but even that isn't hard core ballet. it's just dance.
Anyway, tuition fees for a three yr diploma at NAFA is $8000 a year (w/o tuition grant). at first i thought that was ok.. but then i did my times table and realised it amounts to $24,000.
and i thought that sum looked familiar- It's the same cost as a local uni degree w tuition grant in singapore. and i suddenly feel so cheated. i was wasting my time for four years, waiting to pursue something i thot was 'cheaper' but no, it'll amount to the same.
at the end of e day does my entire education amt to $48,000 then? sigh. not worth it. shouldn't even have wasted time on my first degree.
BUT truth be told, i am not bold enough to go thru life w/o a 'proper paper'. so even if i go back to 4 yrs ago, fresh from 'A' lvls, i will still choose uni first. hah.
SIGH
Then secondly, three yrs is a long time. am i tt committed to dance on tt level? maybe all i need is just a month long intensive summer sch to feel happy? maybe i don't have to be so hardcore as to pursue a diploma/degreee?
ANYWAY, back to singapore style careers:
after i graduate, on top of these dancing plans in my head,
the practical thing will be to apply to SPH cos i nv work there before. and continue tuition. continue weekly ballet classes. maybe take up another dance form. and bible study.
and that'll be my life after i graduate. either that, or dance. please release me to the 'theatre of my dreams'...
Wonder what my parents will think/say if i tell them seriously about this. Currently, i just tell my mother i'm going to learn motorbike after i graduate =p but she believes me.
Sometimes i look at my peers in school and i see their happy faces and i wonder what does it feel like to be able to study something you feel passionate about. Some of my peers knew they wanted to study media in jc! they knew that wkw was where they wanted to be..
i hope tt i'll be able to enjoy tt life as a student again. these 4 yrs at wkw.. well.. it's just like sticking w something for e sake of it. it's bearable.. but not life. maybe that's y it's hard to smile in school. if anything, at least it's one more experience i can add to 'what i know so far about life'.
I breezed through today fine and i didn't realise that by the end of this loong friday, so many assignments have come my way! didn't even have time to realise.
Anyway, my sem break ended well because i did get to go to east coast in the end! Chris and i headed up to the east in 966 (which is really not a bad bus ride) and cycled in the cloudy weather and a little bit of rain. but it was every bit pleasant. I was so happy and satisfied. heh. glad we went. thanks for going girl :)
The following week still had no ballet but i completed my lit essay and was putting off contacting my fyp organisations. So very quickly, the first wk of sch after term break ended v quickly. And then i spent the weekend with swee's family in genting!
just enjoying the nice cold air, walking around the shopping centre for four hours, drinking lotsa coffee for tea, and breakfast, and eating cookies!
And i pretty much slacked this week away too. was getting a lil worried if my bumming would mark e demise of this sem's grades.. ah well. but friday ends on a heavier note and i now have a list of things to do that i feel good about! midway thru e wk i was still feeling hesitant to make phone calls to organisations and the readings i did just didnt seem to sink into my head. Had ballet on monday night but i no longer have tuition on tuesday nights now. anyway, i took time to go running when got nth else to do. it's good anyway =)
Then i read an email by my proj partner and was jolted back to reality so i quickly made those relevant phone calls during my long break today.
As for the assignments i now have on hand:
-after morning class: Science poster proj meeting on monday
-after afternoon class: Design a newspaper front page - send an email to my mates by saturday
-Follow up on fyp organisations (now that i've started, i don't feel the inertia anymore.. feeling excited abt it now instead ;) )
- continue with readings for media law
and well, nothing for lit yet. uhm unless i get started on reading 'the tempest'.
And today during my long break, i finally went to find out how much was tuition fees at NAFA. yea.. i find myself thinking more about my days after graduation (All that's left is to complete my fyp, and 4 more modules and the upcoming exams in nov.). i also keep thinking about some 'variables' i want in my life even then.
I've been wondering what i should do..
(just to share, pls note that in sharing the following ideas, it is my wish that they be subject to confidentiality.
(heheh..learnt in media law class tt u should say when u mean sth to be confidential if not if it spreads, it won't be in your advantage to win a legal case where there's breach of confidence)
ok number one, i am young so technically, the future does await me! i can choose anyway i want my career to be. i can do anything! once released from ntu. hoho..
my friend also asked me what i want to do after i graduate. some of my peers are looking at post grad courses.. others gg out to work. i guess i belong to the latter group. (unless..)
Well, we all know it's always been my dream to be able to study DANCE for all that it is. i realised DANCE is something you NEED to do when you are young and you can't delay it. so i guess whatever dreams/plans i have, i must shelve it all for my dance education to continue seriously.
I remember at one ttf session, dn ivan asked around the table what were our wants/ goals in life. at that point of time, i was still very mesmerised with the chance to be able to dance ballet again. i was all caught up in the 'ballet world' phase again so i uttered that i would 'just like a taste of studying dance to know what it feels like to be a full-time dance student' who gets to pull up into pink tights and leotards everyday as uniform..
Never really considered it carefully though... maybe i didn't dare to (but it's silly cos this is abt the only thing i always have on my mind! weirdly enough).
Then life got busier in the following months and i felt a little lazy at ballet and i skipped classes here and there.. and then eventually went a mth w/o ballet in july. then i came back and tried to fall back into routine again. just as i was easing well into it, classes were disrupted for up to three weeks cos of F1 (end sept to early oct)
So to date, it was three wks w/o ballet. in tt time, altho i felt happy at the break, i still tried to keep up w moderate exercise and jogs also to get the 'high feeling' and 'kick' outta the exertion. And i thought that was all..
Till i finally went back to ballet last monday and the feeling i got after class was So Much better than e high after a jog. it wasn't the same!
On monday, it occurred to me to promise myself to always stick to ballet from now on till forever.. after the second chance this yr.. i shldn't go away from it like i did in 07-08. it was like two lost yrs. but it also showed me how much ballet means to me.
So if anyone asks me what i want to do after i graduate? well, my heartfelt answer is that i want to try dancing. the same hope i had after 'O' levels and 'A' levels. but didn't have the guts to pursue cos im stuck in e singapore education rat race.
But in a few more months, After i finally have a valid degree, i can go and pursue my real interest. and age is catching up w me.
Yet i've never imagined a dancing education for myself. being in singapore, dancing doesn't look so achievable. everyone who is serious has to train in ballet schools in US, UK, Australia/New Zealand or BeiJing/ Hong Kong. i never see myself going so far.
The only option available in singapore is NAFA or La-Salle. but even that isn't hard core ballet. it's just dance.
Anyway, tuition fees for a three yr diploma at NAFA is $8000 a year (w/o tuition grant). at first i thought that was ok.. but then i did my times table and realised it amounts to $24,000.
and i thought that sum looked familiar- It's the same cost as a local uni degree w tuition grant in singapore. and i suddenly feel so cheated. i was wasting my time for four years, waiting to pursue something i thot was 'cheaper' but no, it'll amount to the same.
at the end of e day does my entire education amt to $48,000 then? sigh. not worth it. shouldn't even have wasted time on my first degree.
BUT truth be told, i am not bold enough to go thru life w/o a 'proper paper'. so even if i go back to 4 yrs ago, fresh from 'A' lvls, i will still choose uni first. hah.
SIGH
Then secondly, three yrs is a long time. am i tt committed to dance on tt level? maybe all i need is just a month long intensive summer sch to feel happy? maybe i don't have to be so hardcore as to pursue a diploma/degreee?
ANYWAY, back to singapore style careers:
after i graduate, on top of these dancing plans in my head,
the practical thing will be to apply to SPH cos i nv work there before. and continue tuition. continue weekly ballet classes. maybe take up another dance form. and bible study.
and that'll be my life after i graduate. either that, or dance. please release me to the 'theatre of my dreams'...
Wonder what my parents will think/say if i tell them seriously about this. Currently, i just tell my mother i'm going to learn motorbike after i graduate =p but she believes me.
Sometimes i look at my peers in school and i see their happy faces and i wonder what does it feel like to be able to study something you feel passionate about. Some of my peers knew they wanted to study media in jc! they knew that wkw was where they wanted to be..
i hope tt i'll be able to enjoy tt life as a student again. these 4 yrs at wkw.. well.. it's just like sticking w something for e sake of it. it's bearable.. but not life. maybe that's y it's hard to smile in school. if anything, at least it's one more experience i can add to 'what i know so far about life'.