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I walked into the toilet at fareast plaza sat on the floor and cried my eyes out. Probably wasn't in there for too long, but I must have like a dozen other people go into the toilet next to me, shitting and peeing. The highlight was the bulimic puking her guts out, gagging and gagging but to no avail. How sad.
Today started out well. In counselling we were hypnotised. It was quite an experience. In managing disabilities we went around NP being pushed around on a wheelchair. Then i passed my BTT, and applied for my PDL (yay me! Took me so many attempts to pass my evaluation) then there was brain an behaviour lecture, which has always been my favourite class.
Then Eli and I went out tgt and we laughed on the bus trip over. Heh. Talked about glee and happiness.
Then now I am crying in the toilet.
I wont say what happened here. It's too private. You can ask me yourself if you'd like, and I might tell you.
It's so weird. Imagine this. One girl is on the floor hugging her knees and crying while the other is desperately trying to remove all consumed food from her body.
I am currently waiting for my eyes to stop being puffy and my face to stop looking like I cried. Usually when I cry I just tear, so my face isn't red. But this time I sobbed while I cried so all that exertion must have made my face super red.
I usually cry in toilets or my room. My mom would scold me and basically tell me that I am a piece of shit, and I'd cry my eyes out over many different thoughts. Like my mom is so unfair, the -insert issue here- is ruined forever. She doesn't treat my sister this way, she doesn't care.
But this time, the same thought keeps getting to me. I've lost you.
Goodbye buddy it was nice while it lasted. Thanks for being my friend
Now my blog is my friend yet again. I like you, even though you're like talking to a wall. But I never reach a point where I am sobbing when it comes to you, oh livejournal.
I can't smell the bulimic's dinner; my nose is too blocked.
Usually when I cry I can stop after a short while. This is taking longer than expected. Haha. :)
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