.im.so.afraid.of.forgetting.

[chasmfalls]

I wanna bleed
But not to feel the pain
I wanna die
But then come back again

I can’t let down my guard
Because someday
Someone might come along
Who actually loves me…
I can’t tear down my walls
Because today
I’ll take the final step
And turn away one last time
Turn my back to the bricks
And never look back…
Never look back…

I want to love you
But I don’t think I can
These walls of mine
This barrier
Won’t let anyone through
Not even you

I push so far away
And though I’m not sure
I know I have no choice
I won’t get hurt again

I can’t let down my guard
Because someday
Someone might come along
Who actually loves me…
I can’t tear down my walls
Because today
I’ll take the final step
And turn away one last time
Turn my back to the bricks
And never look back…
Never look back…
I just can’t look back…