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Haven't written in here for ages... I finally went for my first antenatal appt yesterday, I was disappointed as I didn't get to hear the heartbeat, I'm sure everything is okay, I just worry as I know so many other young mothers who have had miscarriages, I don't think I could go through it, I'd go insane with grief. I think I've felt the baby kicking lately, just faintly so hopefully everything really is okay. I just can't seem to get excited about this child, I'm so darn scared that it'll never get here alive. I must sound like a complete idiot, Jason keeps telling me not to be so faithless when I've mentioned it... not that I go on and on about it or anything, it's mainly just kept close inside.
Tobias turned two years old today, my little man is growing up so fast, he's so beautiful and talented, funny and intelligent ~ and frustrating!! But that's part of parenting a terrible toddler!!! Nah really, I love my son to bits, he is a real little ray of sunshine in our lives and hopefully his little brother or sister will be too.
We might be moving soon, Jason has a job interview in a couple of weeks and if he gets it, we'll be moving back up to the North Island, that'll be interesting. It'll be good if he does in regards to my job, it is really getting to me lately. :(
I better go and grab some sleep ~ hopefully Jason hasn't been calling while I've been online to catch me out being up late!! hahahahaha, not like he can do much anyways but get all shitty!! Oh I love him!! :)
Tobias turned two years old today, my little man is growing up so fast, he's so beautiful and talented, funny and intelligent ~ and frustrating!! But that's part of parenting a terrible toddler!!! Nah really, I love my son to bits, he is a real little ray of sunshine in our lives and hopefully his little brother or sister will be too.
We might be moving soon, Jason has a job interview in a couple of weeks and if he gets it, we'll be moving back up to the North Island, that'll be interesting. It'll be good if he does in regards to my job, it is really getting to me lately. :(
I better go and grab some sleep ~ hopefully Jason hasn't been calling while I've been online to catch me out being up late!! hahahahaha, not like he can do much anyways but get all shitty!! Oh I love him!! :)