my family is dying off
my mom's cousin died last week...he was like an uncle when i was a lil kid...but, he got to drinkin too much too often, so they all split, i never saw his kids or wife, not since i wasssss 12 maybe....i'd see him every couple of years or so about town...he always stunk of alkeehol, but ya know, whatever....so, i don't feel i have actually known him, not since i was 12....same goes with my aunt and uncle who both passed on in the past two years...all three (more or less) killed themselves though. maybe that's why i don't feel much loss? or, more than likely cuz i haven't really known any of them for over a decade...i'd see em every few years, but they were exactly "there"....drugs and booze are no good. maybe i am a little too self righteous about it all, but fuck man, life is all you got when you get down to it...and if i ya don't want it, fine, but i think it's a terrible waste to, well, waste it away or worse yet, trash it.
it does suck for their families though...and i feel worse for them...
anyway, my "uncle" butchie's viewing is tomorrow....i am pretty sure the rest of my family is going...my mom says i should, if for nothing else, to experience that for the first time in my life...kinda like a way to "break me in" with someone i don't feel so strongly about...i guess it's a good enough idea....but i got to thinkin while i was drivin to work tonite, i should be there for his kids....
if they even show?
on the brighter side of things, last weekend was great! got to sleep alot, went to the cirque du solei Varekai with jenna for her V-day present, couple of dinners too....the cirque thing was pretty bad ass... i have never been into it too much, but knowing now that EVERYTHING is live (singing, music, etc etc) it's much more impressive and enjoyable...the Picollo Poopalo Brothers (as i dubbed them) were totally nuts! they did soooo many rad things that EVERYONE can do, IF they dedicated themselves to learning to....that's what i dug the most. it's just people, like anyone, who have decided to accell at jumping and flipping and spinning and shit....
if you don't know who papa picollo poopalo is, you have no business knowing me!! :)
it does suck for their families though...and i feel worse for them...
anyway, my "uncle" butchie's viewing is tomorrow....i am pretty sure the rest of my family is going...my mom says i should, if for nothing else, to experience that for the first time in my life...kinda like a way to "break me in" with someone i don't feel so strongly about...i guess it's a good enough idea....but i got to thinkin while i was drivin to work tonite, i should be there for his kids....
if they even show?
on the brighter side of things, last weekend was great! got to sleep alot, went to the cirque du solei Varekai with jenna for her V-day present, couple of dinners too....the cirque thing was pretty bad ass... i have never been into it too much, but knowing now that EVERYTHING is live (singing, music, etc etc) it's much more impressive and enjoyable...the Picollo Poopalo Brothers (as i dubbed them) were totally nuts! they did soooo many rad things that EVERYONE can do, IF they dedicated themselves to learning to....that's what i dug the most. it's just people, like anyone, who have decided to accell at jumping and flipping and spinning and shit....
if you don't know who papa picollo poopalo is, you have no business knowing me!! :)