dear jeff
you're a coward. what are you so afraid of? the fact that you still love me and you're trying not to? the fact that you know that if we both really tried, we could have worked. that now you're with someone else and the feelings aren't ever going to be the same? that you and I have so much in common? that when we're together, whether or not you're smiling on the outside, you're smiling on the inside? that you really do miss me? that you'll never be able to forget me?
or is that you know that no one will ever love you as much as I do.
I know he will probably never read this. but, oh well. I needed to get it out. I have been thinking so much lately. and have come to conclusions about life. and maybe I am a coward also, for not taking jeff back three days after the break up. maybe I was afraid of my feelings. but I am not anymore. and for the rest of my life, I vow not to hold anything in. I swear it. everything will be told. all of it.
goodnight
or is that you know that no one will ever love you as much as I do.
I know he will probably never read this. but, oh well. I needed to get it out. I have been thinking so much lately. and have come to conclusions about life. and maybe I am a coward also, for not taking jeff back three days after the break up. maybe I was afraid of my feelings. but I am not anymore. and for the rest of my life, I vow not to hold anything in. I swear it. everything will be told. all of it.
goodnight