Buzz, oh Buzz, wherefore art thou Buzz?
There's this story that I had, once upon a time, started writing. I was wondering whether or not I should pick it back up again. If I did I would have to start from the beginning and make it all up as I go because I currently have not a single copy or anything pertaining to that story; not even the stuff I wrote in class -- it's all either gone m.i.a. or be erased from existence by my stolen laptop. Woe is me, right? Anyway, if I try rewriting it I'm almost positive that it will turn out to be pretty bad, because, well, Buzz and...see I don't even remember the chick's name...have all moved on with their lives because I've pretty much got their ending in my head. Anyway, if I decide to do it, I'll just write it directly onto here because I'm tired of losing my stuff. It makes me sad.
In other news, I, unofficially as of Saturday night, have a boyfriend. My first, actually. In 3 or 4 days, depending on if you count Wed, it will become official. I'm kind of scared to change it on facebook, because then it's official official and EVERYONE will know...and there will be no hiding for ANYONE. Which will heavily suck. Specially since our family group is so close and stuff...but at least I get to escape to college. Poor guy, he has to stay there and deal with all the drama of those around him. I wonder if he's told his parents yet though. It'd probably be a good idea to do so before we see each other again. Honestly though, I'm pretty scared about what's going to happen. But now I can hold hands with him. I'm looking forward to that. I guess it's the simple things that make me happy huh? That'll make his life easier :P The only thing, though, is that he never texts me. And he goes to bed incredibly early. I guess it's a good thing, but when else is he going to talk to me? Don't get me wrong, I like that he's not bending himself over backwards to do what I want, he's got backbone and what not, but I wanna talk and there's never a chance to. Oh well. We'll figure it out I guess.---end of useless girlfriend rant.
There was another story that I was thinking about writing. It was going to be as realistic as I possible could get it, which is pretty strange for me because I love the drama of death and extreme emotions. I can't quite remember what the plot line was going to be about, but I think I'm going to try and put Buzz into that light so it'll be as realistic as possible, because if this story was realistic...it'd be pretty insane. So fingers crossed for that. Oh and if I do do it, I'd probably make a new folder or whatever just for it so that I could make my life easier. First I have to figure out how to work it. I kind of want to start writing the story, but my brain power is starting to lack and my narrative voice is shot and bleeding in the corner left to die. I have to remember the girl's name anyway. I was going to start it with her anyway. And I kind of want to remember the other story I was going to work on because it sounded good...to me anyway. Hopefully I'll be able to dream about Buzz and how to start the story and stuff (the original beginning actually really really REALLY sucks, so that needs mending to begin with. Though I'm not sure how I'm going to do it this time. What's the best way to make someone seem normal? Without that whole philosophical question "what is normal?" or whatever. I wonder.
I applied for a job yesterday...or two days ago I guess. The lady said that she would call either that night or the next day. She never did. But I don't mind, because after thinking about it for a little bit, I don't want to work there. I think I would rather take my chances with the stock market. Become one of those broker people or whatever that are always buying and selling stuff. Like the guy in the manga Katana who made a crap load of money but refused to spending and was the stingiest man alive. Of course, not to the extreme, but something like that. And if i work the stock I could get lots and lots...or I could lose lots and lots. But the only upside is that I don't think I could go into debt in stock...I hope.
Anyway, I am this close from falling over, so good night world. L)