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hmm...not sure how to start this one. There has been a lot going on the last couple months. This is the first journal entry I have written since Lord knows how long. I guess I could start at Happy New Year. I am so glad that this is a new year, it's so nice to be able to start off with a clean slate. Last year wasn't a very good year for me. I think the only good thing that happend last year was that I graduated and I got my Esthetician License. I met a lot of cool people, and made a lot of new friends. The last couple months of 2005 I started thinking about the future. I started to re-evaluate myself and my life. See how I could change for the better and what I could do to make my goals happen. One thing that I can't stand though is that people think that you can't change...everyone always says "people change", but when it comes down to someone actually making a change they have no faith in that person, and don't think it could happen. I think people think more that people change but for the worse...only because you don't see very many people change for the better. I want this year to be a drama free, I want to be relationship free so I can see who I am, I want to be independent. I want it to be an adventure. I want to explore, see new things. I want to go back to school for interior design and massage, I also want to pay off all my debt to my parents and all of my bills. I want to buy a vehicle on my own, and I want to live on my own. Who knows how many of those are going to actually happen, but I am going to try to do all of it. It's funny, because a lot of people in high school thought that I wasn't going to end up like this they thought i would be working full time, not going to school, and doing nothing with my life, but I am actually doing something with myself. If it wasn't for a few great people that I had in my life, it probably wouldn't have happend, so Thank You(you know who you are). We all gossip, we all talk about each other, we all are fake in some way or another, anyone who says they aren't isn't being true to themselves. I learned to bite my tounge, to not care anymore. Screw it. Speak well of people and you will never have to whisper, if you have something to say about someone, be willing and ready to be able to say it to there face. As far as my family, we are doing very well. My Mom and my sister are my best friends. We just found out that my mom has a disease called Fibromialga, it's not fatal but it's very draining. Life is so short, and things happen so fast. My family has gotten closer in the last year, and especially in the last couple months. My brother is finally doing better, and I don't mind sitting at home with the family anymore. We have fun together, we laugh, we are making memories, and spending time together...that is the kind of memories I want to remember. This is the first journal entry and probably the last. I don't know why I did it, and I have no more time to write...but I hope all is well with everyone or anyone who reads this. God Bless Ya'll!!!!!! <3