long time gone
"If I've been a long time gone, it's not that love of you, has been forsaken or forgot, or halved or broke in two. But outside major darkness where the circle is complete, there's no fear that lovers born will ever fail to meet." -Robert Hunter
I am breaking my nearly 8 month hiatus from LJ to return and get all these crazy thoughts out of my head. I don't know what is going on in my life these days, it all seems like too much at once. Everything is upside down or shaken or confused or blurry. I know what I need to do but can't make myself do it. And I also know the things I should not be doing, but can't keep myself from doing them anyway. I miss my parents and my brother and my friends from Savannah. I miss Savannnah, period. Adam and I broke up about a month ago and I miss the love and consideration he used to show me. I miss writing my thoughts down and keeping them in order. I miss knowing what I want out of life. I miss working 3rd down shifts at work which they no longer give me since I was almost fired about a month and a half ago. I miss going to the Episcopal Center and having lunch with Father Dann. I miss being on top of all my schoolwork and not having to stress out and pull all-nighters. I miss Tom sometimes too. I miss my dogs. I miss having a car with a CD player. I miss my Death Cab for Cutie CD. I miss praying. I miss knowing that everything is going to be ok.
Random thoughts:
Mollie and I are friends again and I'm really glad. She's a cool girl.
I might be living in Abbey West in the fall with 3 girls named Ashley. Thank God there's no house phone.
I am so glad that Joe Hickox from work and I are becoming friends. We just understand each other, and there is no sexual tension at all. It's completely real.
My boss is fat and lazy, but he's usually a really cool guy to work for.
I really hope I can pull out at least a B in all of my classes. I NEED that.
I'm quitting smoking. For real this time!
I haven't been getting much sleep.
I need to buy my brother's ticket for the Widespread show in Columbus.
Sons of Italy in Athens is one of my new favorite places. It's so chill.
Don't try to juggle too many guys at one time, it's just frustrating and it makes you have to lie.
I don't want to have to have a guy to be happy. I'm want to be happy on my own without attention and acceptance from them. It's so hard. I don't know that I've ever been able to do it.
God, I fucking miss Savannah. I hate Athens. Not all the time, but sometimes I hate it with a passion. I have a lot of sad memories that haunt me here. I need to be somewhere safe and comfortable. Or at least somewhere new.
I'm considering doing Occupational Therapy, instead of Environmental Economics.
I love my Mom.
That's all for now. But I will be back very soon.
I am breaking my nearly 8 month hiatus from LJ to return and get all these crazy thoughts out of my head. I don't know what is going on in my life these days, it all seems like too much at once. Everything is upside down or shaken or confused or blurry. I know what I need to do but can't make myself do it. And I also know the things I should not be doing, but can't keep myself from doing them anyway. I miss my parents and my brother and my friends from Savannah. I miss Savannnah, period. Adam and I broke up about a month ago and I miss the love and consideration he used to show me. I miss writing my thoughts down and keeping them in order. I miss knowing what I want out of life. I miss working 3rd down shifts at work which they no longer give me since I was almost fired about a month and a half ago. I miss going to the Episcopal Center and having lunch with Father Dann. I miss being on top of all my schoolwork and not having to stress out and pull all-nighters. I miss Tom sometimes too. I miss my dogs. I miss having a car with a CD player. I miss my Death Cab for Cutie CD. I miss praying. I miss knowing that everything is going to be ok.
Random thoughts:
Mollie and I are friends again and I'm really glad. She's a cool girl.
I might be living in Abbey West in the fall with 3 girls named Ashley. Thank God there's no house phone.
I am so glad that Joe Hickox from work and I are becoming friends. We just understand each other, and there is no sexual tension at all. It's completely real.
My boss is fat and lazy, but he's usually a really cool guy to work for.
I really hope I can pull out at least a B in all of my classes. I NEED that.
I'm quitting smoking. For real this time!
I haven't been getting much sleep.
I need to buy my brother's ticket for the Widespread show in Columbus.
Sons of Italy in Athens is one of my new favorite places. It's so chill.
Don't try to juggle too many guys at one time, it's just frustrating and it makes you have to lie.
I don't want to have to have a guy to be happy. I'm want to be happy on my own without attention and acceptance from them. It's so hard. I don't know that I've ever been able to do it.
God, I fucking miss Savannah. I hate Athens. Not all the time, but sometimes I hate it with a passion. I have a lot of sad memories that haunt me here. I need to be somewhere safe and comfortable. Or at least somewhere new.
I'm considering doing Occupational Therapy, instead of Environmental Economics.
I love my Mom.
That's all for now. But I will be back very soon.