Lungs.

[chasethefox667]

im intruigued by the situation i have found myself in.
simply interested.

it feels like I have started with a simple tendu combination
and ended up with develepes.

upgrade.

I wanted it this way.
its perfect. like.. it fits like i always imagined,
like cinderellas glass slipper.

and i find myself holding back.

i wonder what its like to simply live and let live.
wouldnt that be an interesting life?

me, not being high strung and pissed off all the time.
i dont really think im as angry.
or needy.
or fragile
or emotional as i act.

i think i am simply too uptight to function like a normal human being.
because a normal human being would be happy with my life.

and i feel like.
i am watching my life from a couch.

i think i need a shake up in my life.
keep me on my toes.

a good shake up though.
not a shake up to kill me
or uproot my life
or crush my soul.
i mean a good shakeup

because i feel like im in a rut and im sick of being depressed,
or uninterested in my surroundings.
because im only gonna be here once.
why cant i make the best of it?