Nothing's important right now besides something beautiful..
So, im sick. I feel like im dying.
andddd also my life is a bundle of stress and inconvenience.
but my schedule this semester is loaded, and difficult as fuck.
which would be stellar.
if
i wasnt exhausted and sick, battling mono.
with nurses telling me im fine.
and school councellors telling me that i cant take an english class in my own town in the summer.
and with assignments im supposed to be managing to do
through pounding headaches that keep me from focussing my eyes.
and constand physical activity.
and feeling hungry and sick at the same time.
and with every muscle in my body hurting.
i just kindof want life to fall into place.
i kindof want to be alone and rebuild my life like legos.
positivity.
you know?
i feel like it all fell down and is out of control
and i feel like its fixable but i dont know
how to only be concerned with myself and my own wellbeing.
i dont know how to do whats good for me.
instead of trying to please everyone.
andddd also my life is a bundle of stress and inconvenience.
but my schedule this semester is loaded, and difficult as fuck.
which would be stellar.
if
i wasnt exhausted and sick, battling mono.
with nurses telling me im fine.
and school councellors telling me that i cant take an english class in my own town in the summer.
and with assignments im supposed to be managing to do
through pounding headaches that keep me from focussing my eyes.
and constand physical activity.
and feeling hungry and sick at the same time.
and with every muscle in my body hurting.
i just kindof want life to fall into place.
i kindof want to be alone and rebuild my life like legos.
positivity.
you know?
i feel like it all fell down and is out of control
and i feel like its fixable but i dont know
how to only be concerned with myself and my own wellbeing.
i dont know how to do whats good for me.
instead of trying to please everyone.