No man, No man, No man!

[chasethefox667]

My toes are cold.

Today i looked in the mirror after reminding myself its christmas eve tomorrow.
i remembered back to all my other christmas eves
and i feel like a child again like all those times

but i look in the mirror and i dont look like one anymore.

one day im going to move out
and maybe get married or have kids
or a dog or cat
and a house or apartment
and a job and friends and coworkers and a salary and bills.

and i will be returning home for christmas instead of seeing the tree for a month

and its weird to think that one day i will be an adult.
and how do you go about handing things down
or sharing things with other people
like holidays?

how do you start putting codes on christmas presents
or telling stories of santa clause?
how do you become santa and the easter bunny and the tooth fairy?
does it just happen one day?
it slips into you and you know exactly what to do
or do you have to learn?

will i have a mom haircut one day
and shop for mom clothes
and will i eventually have to figure out how to share
toothbrushes and bedrooms and dishsoap and responsibilities?
or will i be alone?