A Ramble Within a Struggle
Wow. Six weeks since I last updated. Life has been so complex these days. Its hard to catch up and let all my emotions out. Its funny because I just recently found out that a person who I had been crushing on for a year or so...is moving in next door. Funny how that works. I thought I was excited, but now I realized that he is no good especially since he likes to act irresponsibly. I think I have mellowed out and finally understand that there are other more worth while people out there in life. Like this one person. ha. I haven't had butterflies in a while and I like them. :D Now to my friends who seem to be not getting along at this moment. I just want to let you guys know that is hurts me to see you guys ignoring each other and carrying on back and forth on the computer. Can we all just be civil. I feel like monkey in the middle and have to hide stuff from both of you because I really am trying to be the mediator here. I know I should tell you guys in person how I feel, but feel as though it won't be the same. It makes me sad because we all only have one more year left together and I thought once your a senior all your enemies are put aside and we make this year the best one ever because we all are going our separate ways. This doesn't mean we might not see each other ever again it just means we all are going to be busy with our own separate lives. Sometimes I wish I lived in an alternate universe surrounded by music because that is where I feel I can escape in times like these. I just want everything to be back to normal. Today I also found out that my aunt, uncle, and cousin got into a car accident and I am a little shaken up about that. I feel like such a nerd these days because last Thursday in class I tried to get my work done really fast just to read my history textbook and on Friday night I did pretty much all of my AP Biology homework which was 4 or 5 chapters. ha. Makes me feel smart. Yesterday I got to see my aunt who I haven't really ever met because I was about 6 when she came down from Idaho. I really am glad to finally meet her and got to hold my new baby cousin MiKayla. She is adorable and is so tiny. She felt very breakable and I was nervous the whole time I was holding her. I can't wait until next week where I can get away from this school and a tiny amount of drama and just relax with my family because they are the most important part of my life and I need to hang out with them and feel comfortable with myself. Wow this is really long, but it just gives you enough to get inside of whats going on in my mine. :D