just_muse_me | 14.2.5. Life shattering
14.2.5. What is one thing in your life that would completely shatter you if you lost?
My wife and my unborn daughter. I know that sounds a contrived and predictable answer, but it’s the truth. A year ago, that wouldn’t have been my answer. For one, I wasn’t married and there was no prospects of babies on the horizon. So much has changed in so little time. It’s like everything I yearned for deep down was suddenly gifted to me all in rapid succession… but it came at a price. It’s not all been hearts and roses.
I still think about the baby we lost. Not as much as it used to consume me but every now and then I’ll feel a pang in my gut about what could have been. Would it have been a boy or a girl? Rogue and I would be parents right now if we hadn’t lost that baby. Rogue would never have gotten hurt. That’s something I will never forget and the pain of it will never really fade. Just when I found her I thought I had lost her. I did. I thought she would die and just the thought of that alone made me feel sick inside like I would never stop hurting. I don’t really know what it was that Logan did to save her, but I will forever be indebted to him.
She came into my life and took me by surprise. I never expected to fall for her so rapidly or so deeply, but I did. She didn’t change me but she made me want to change myself. Commitment suddenly didn’t seem like a disease anymore. Sex stopped being a hobby and became a hunger for one person. Rogue did all that and without her I wouldn’t be as happy now as I am. I’m happier now that I ever have been. She’s given me a life that truly would shatter me to the point of no return if I lost it. She gave me everything I wanted and more. She, with my daughter, are my whole life and if I lost them, I’m not sure I could go on.
- Rogue is justalilcontact and Logan is hrtsevrytime, both referenced with permission
Word Count | 345
My wife and my unborn daughter. I know that sounds a contrived and predictable answer, but it’s the truth. A year ago, that wouldn’t have been my answer. For one, I wasn’t married and there was no prospects of babies on the horizon. So much has changed in so little time. It’s like everything I yearned for deep down was suddenly gifted to me all in rapid succession… but it came at a price. It’s not all been hearts and roses.
I still think about the baby we lost. Not as much as it used to consume me but every now and then I’ll feel a pang in my gut about what could have been. Would it have been a boy or a girl? Rogue and I would be parents right now if we hadn’t lost that baby. Rogue would never have gotten hurt. That’s something I will never forget and the pain of it will never really fade. Just when I found her I thought I had lost her. I did. I thought she would die and just the thought of that alone made me feel sick inside like I would never stop hurting. I don’t really know what it was that Logan did to save her, but I will forever be indebted to him.
She came into my life and took me by surprise. I never expected to fall for her so rapidly or so deeply, but I did. She didn’t change me but she made me want to change myself. Commitment suddenly didn’t seem like a disease anymore. Sex stopped being a hobby and became a hunger for one person. Rogue did all that and without her I wouldn’t be as happy now as I am. I’m happier now that I ever have been. She’s given me a life that truly would shatter me to the point of no return if I lost it. She gave me everything I wanted and more. She, with my daughter, are my whole life and if I lost them, I’m not sure I could go on.
- Rogue is justalilcontact and Logan is hrtsevrytime, both referenced with permission
Word Count | 345