i've got friends in low places.. moving on.
okay so its been like an hour since i wrote my first entry, and things have gotten beyond worse and some good. kevin totally flipped out on me tonight bc of so many things, im confused about everything and idk what to do right now. so many things are going on in my life and definatly didnt need something else to try and worry about and fix, but i so dont want things bad between the two of us, i think he is beyond the sweetest guy ever and i hate when he gets mad at me, and this time i feel like i cant do anything to fix it.. and to top it off drew starts bitching at me & my ex is forever pouring his heart out to me at random times and it completley throws me off guard. i feel like i have to try and please everyone all at once but all i end up doing is hurting everyone, i seriously need someone to help me with that..i think i need to see a mental doctor or something =(. i guess things did get some what better. i talked to jason tonight for the first time in a few weeks, he is seriously the easiest guy to talk to, and the fact that he is older and knows exactly what im going through helps SO much..and everytime, right when im about to give up, he always seems to know what to say.
LiquorIDKher: nah, get through it, u only look weak if u quit
LiquorIDKher: just say fuck it and hangout with ur girls and have fun, who gives a damn what they say, bc I promise in college no body gives a damn
..it doesnt seem that simple, but when he states the obvious and then i think about, i shouldnt give a fuck, im almost a junior in high school and i still care about what people say..even when i know its bullshit, and then it gets to me for weeks, even months. i need to learn to go out with my gerls and have a good time and not care about anything else. ((jason house.. thank you so much for talking to me about all of that, you always know what to do and how to go about doing it, youre a great friend, thanks again.))
..im tired of trying, caring, and worrying about everyone else and their input..
i think tonight i have FINALLY learned that i need to do what JENNA wants to do, and what i feel is best for me, i need to live life to the fullest and have fun and not give a damn.
i have the greatest friends in the world. =) i love you guys.
LiquorIDKher: nah, get through it, u only look weak if u quit
LiquorIDKher: just say fuck it and hangout with ur girls and have fun, who gives a damn what they say, bc I promise in college no body gives a damn
..it doesnt seem that simple, but when he states the obvious and then i think about, i shouldnt give a fuck, im almost a junior in high school and i still care about what people say..even when i know its bullshit, and then it gets to me for weeks, even months. i need to learn to go out with my gerls and have a good time and not care about anything else. ((jason house.. thank you so much for talking to me about all of that, you always know what to do and how to go about doing it, youre a great friend, thanks again.))
..im tired of trying, caring, and worrying about everyone else and their input..
i think tonight i have FINALLY learned that i need to do what JENNA wants to do, and what i feel is best for me, i need to live life to the fullest and have fun and not give a damn.
i have the greatest friends in the world. =) i love you guys.