more or less

[chase_nothing]

I was just givin
a much needed pep talk
from a fast growing friend
he hit a bunch of good marks
about me and doesn't know
me too well so....
the sum up....

I project an unapproachable-ness
lots of sharp defined edges
are seen...
why reach out to the pointy thing
I am happy being
unhappy
well sort of...
he put it better
I must deside if i want to
live and be in
the village
or
close myself off in a cave
on a peak

I want to live in the village
but i think the villagers won't have me...
but i don't know that
it's what i think
not what is

so what if ever fag i have meet
looks down
on me

I haven't met them all
and i won't

I have to think about some
of these things
gargle them around
swallow what i need
spit out some
and
repeat...

sigh