so.... I post...and hope
This is it
I am wrong in everything I do
Every problem I have , have had, or will have pales
I am just as worthless as my "demeanor" suggests
My tail is so between my legs
It seems I have no power
no effort is good enough
only unquestioning loyalty
such actions are deserved
I mean, I have done very fucked up things
so I can flake
or
I can be a dick
but never the twain shall meet
so tell me what to do
how to act
what to say
I will do it
or else I loose a friend
and I am in no position at this time in my life to loose the only friend I have
chances are I can't/won't find any others in my life
so please take this as me on my cyber knees
I am not above begging
hell I am barely above pond scum
this means more than any "petty" emotions
so
I say
here
within the only true commune we seem to have now
I am sorry
you win
my lips are puckered
you are right
about everything
your way is the best
I will work everyday if I must
I will go tommorrow and work out my taxes
with or without W2's
I would sell plasma but ....
well I don't think they would take it
once maybe, but 25 bucks won't fix anything now will it
I tried to hook up with some paid studies I ran across
but was too late
I tried to get a job as quick as i could
just not quick enough
the phrase "too little too late" flashes in my small uneducated brain
besides intentions don't pay the bills
harsh but true
I succumb
you broke me
I can't win
I don't have the money
P.S. I know this sounds very martyre like....big bookish even
but it's true, dare I say sincere
all my choices were spent up on DEC 11th 06'
well a I must get home return to pass you blessed me with
do the dishes
clean the bathroom
and
make ammends the only way I know how
Oh I am applying for the management postion
I don't think I can do it that well
It's lots more work/hours/responcablity
but more money means happy times
this may be sad,
but it's the world we live in
and the sooner i accept that the better off I think I will be.
Besides
Money and stability are the only reasons i have ever gotten a man
and Goodness knows I sure as hell could use that.
Later all
jason louis richardson
and nothing more
I am wrong in everything I do
Every problem I have , have had, or will have pales
I am just as worthless as my "demeanor" suggests
My tail is so between my legs
It seems I have no power
no effort is good enough
only unquestioning loyalty
such actions are deserved
I mean, I have done very fucked up things
so I can flake
or
I can be a dick
but never the twain shall meet
so tell me what to do
how to act
what to say
I will do it
or else I loose a friend
and I am in no position at this time in my life to loose the only friend I have
chances are I can't/won't find any others in my life
so please take this as me on my cyber knees
I am not above begging
hell I am barely above pond scum
this means more than any "petty" emotions
so
I say
here
within the only true commune we seem to have now
I am sorry
you win
my lips are puckered
you are right
about everything
your way is the best
I will work everyday if I must
I will go tommorrow and work out my taxes
with or without W2's
I would sell plasma but ....
well I don't think they would take it
once maybe, but 25 bucks won't fix anything now will it
I tried to hook up with some paid studies I ran across
but was too late
I tried to get a job as quick as i could
just not quick enough
the phrase "too little too late" flashes in my small uneducated brain
besides intentions don't pay the bills
harsh but true
I succumb
you broke me
I can't win
I don't have the money
P.S. I know this sounds very martyre like....big bookish even
but it's true, dare I say sincere
all my choices were spent up on DEC 11th 06'
well a I must get home return to pass you blessed me with
do the dishes
clean the bathroom
and
make ammends the only way I know how
Oh I am applying for the management postion
I don't think I can do it that well
It's lots more work/hours/responcablity
but more money means happy times
this may be sad,
but it's the world we live in
and the sooner i accept that the better off I think I will be.
Besides
Money and stability are the only reasons i have ever gotten a man
and Goodness knows I sure as hell could use that.
Later all
jason louis richardson
and nothing more