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things seem a little better, but its still a terrible week. i havent played ultimate the past few days, which has been bringing me down, as well as everything else. i end up having many plans, but they all take place at the same time. so i miss half the things, and half the time is just dead time. i wish i had put some of that dead time into working on homework, or scholarships, or something, but i cant.
i miss being intimate more than almost anything. i long for it so much, i need that emotional release.
last night i was looking forward to playing beiruit. i havent played for at least 3 months, and i was really looking forward to it. i never ended up doing it. furthermore, i didnt have enough more to drink either, so while everyone else was having a good time, i was sitting and waiting.
i hate being alone.
i miss being intimate more than almost anything. i long for it so much, i need that emotional release.
last night i was looking forward to playing beiruit. i havent played for at least 3 months, and i was really looking forward to it. i never ended up doing it. furthermore, i didnt have enough more to drink either, so while everyone else was having a good time, i was sitting and waiting.
i hate being alone.