night 2
So much has been going on in my mind. For the most part, it's been a great month. I've been optimistic, I've been hopeful, I've made a plan for my future. I've rekindled some friendships I was worried about burning out. Brandy and I hung out yesterday, which was really great. I spent most of today with Kevn going all over town, her school, her apartment, poison girl. Saw an art show. But for some reason, I feel sad. Not like, about everything. It's not exactly depression. I just feel sad. I find myself crying. I don't really even know what about. I've gone almost a month without crying, and now I've cried two days in a row. I feel silly. Am I worried about moving? Am I worried about my surgery? Am I worried about certain arguments I've had with people? I feel like I have almost everything I want or need, but it's like something small is out of place, and I can't figure it out. I want to be happy and constructive. I want to be one of those people who barely know what it means to feel sadness. I want to be enlightened. I want to surpass my own level of thinking and become something more. I want to reach an understanding of myself. I am happy. I really am. I just want to find the cause of this occasional anxiety or depression. Let me feel happy, so I can help those around me more. So I can be there for Anna, Kevn, Brandy, and anyone else I love. Blessed be.
Keira
WYN
Keira
WYN