Take a deep breath and hold it in, hold it in
There is so much one cannot say. Hurtful yet truthful things about people and programs and products. Being too honest means being mean, means putting oneself against the grain of the the majority... who THINK they should feel one way but who really either don't know how they feel or don't feel that way at all, but are too afraid to admit it and suffer social ostracism. Too many outspoken people and things would never get done, or would take forever. Too many persons concerned about their reputation and standing among their equally cautious peers and poor decisions are made. There's always a balancing act that occurs between people, an illogical and emotionally driven give-and-take. Sacrificing time for and devoting emotion to one another. That is the non-glamorous side of friendship. There is no way to analyze the costs and the benefits. Often there are no second chances, either. Who matters more to me? Myself, or my friends? Or do the ends meet in the distance? Balance. Optimization. It's hard. Lately I have been taking, taking, taking. But no one, save my family, is selfless. Sooner or later I have to give as much as I am taking.