Happy April Fools Day FOO!!!
So yeah... I didn't go to work today... I was um.. sick.. eh yeah thats it... sore throat... uh fever. My regular BS. ok so maybe that wasn't a good ideal. But I have a ton of homework and 2 days to get it done. Something had to give. Today was it. But Im in a good mood otherwise. Actually Im in a great mood. I finally did what I needed to do. I told Jeff. I was sure that since my mom had told his mom that he knew but it was important that I told him myself. He took it better than I expected him to take it actually. I told him about my medication and how I am finally out of my depression. I told him that when I go back to my psychiatrist I was sure that he was going to give me something to bring me off of my highs... not that Im crazy crazy just that I have energy and I just cant do anything with it.... I know that sounds strange but thats what manic is... having all this energy this "high" and not being able to do anything "productive." We talked about how I might have always had this and it just always being misdiagnosed. He was so understanding and wasn't withdrawing from me at all. He was Jeff. He was my best friend since I was 4 and he basically said he wasn't going anywhere and nothing would make him go anywhere. It was soooo good to hear it. I broke down and although he didn't know I was crying I was telling him how upset I was that I had lost all my friends because of it. "All I have of my past life is you and April" He told me he was sure I could work on getting them back. Im not so sure that I want someone who wouldn't standby me through thick and thin. I know I have done some pretty shitty things to alot of people but who hasn't? why should they treat me bad for something that I have no control over? I don't want to use my illness as a crutch to get through life. I don't want the illness so why should I depend on it? But I don't want to apologize to them when they can't just be my friend every once in awhile. why did I always have to be the bigger person? Anyways back to my story at hand. Jeff was great. Im glad that we are friends and I have someone like him and of course my P!!!
So I spent my "day off" of work working on homework... or so I though... yeah didn't really work out like I hoped. The school closes at 7... and I know its like 4 but I have a ton of stuff to do and well... I FORGOT THE BATTERY TO MY CAMERA!!!! Can you freaking believe it? SO I can't use the studio because I didn't realize that school is closed this weekend.... not really surprised. I can print the stuff I need on Monday and I am printing what I can right this very minute.... since the printer is soooo freaking slow I am able to write this entry... also that would be why this entry is soooo freaking long.... sucks for all of you actually reading it!! he he he!!! Oh yeah well my camera battery wasn't the only thing I forgot. I forgot my tripod. But that was ok because I was going to "rent" one from walmart.... I actually I am renting one from walmart. I didn't realize I didn't have my battery till I bought everything I needed, got to school carried the crap up 3 flights of stars got in the room set it ALL up and then turned the camera on and TADDA... no power... FUCKERS!!!! So I packed it put and took it back to the car.... and came to to print and sulk... somewhat. How can you sulk when your smiling? Its tough.... I know. So I have a Plan... Im gonna go home... Pull out ALL the HUGE halogen lights and make the living room into my portable studio... interesting. I have the best Ideal for a project. Socks. Interesting huh? I know your thinking... Socks??? She is officially off her rocker!!! But I have to do color contrast and "It has to be in a theme"... so Socks. 6 photos of contrasting socks. Im a genius and you all know it. So yeah... I have more to say but I can't make it really public... so will write later!!!
So I spent my "day off" of work working on homework... or so I though... yeah didn't really work out like I hoped. The school closes at 7... and I know its like 4 but I have a ton of stuff to do and well... I FORGOT THE BATTERY TO MY CAMERA!!!! Can you freaking believe it? SO I can't use the studio because I didn't realize that school is closed this weekend.... not really surprised. I can print the stuff I need on Monday and I am printing what I can right this very minute.... since the printer is soooo freaking slow I am able to write this entry... also that would be why this entry is soooo freaking long.... sucks for all of you actually reading it!! he he he!!! Oh yeah well my camera battery wasn't the only thing I forgot. I forgot my tripod. But that was ok because I was going to "rent" one from walmart.... I actually I am renting one from walmart. I didn't realize I didn't have my battery till I bought everything I needed, got to school carried the crap up 3 flights of stars got in the room set it ALL up and then turned the camera on and TADDA... no power... FUCKERS!!!! So I packed it put and took it back to the car.... and came to to print and sulk... somewhat. How can you sulk when your smiling? Its tough.... I know. So I have a Plan... Im gonna go home... Pull out ALL the HUGE halogen lights and make the living room into my portable studio... interesting. I have the best Ideal for a project. Socks. Interesting huh? I know your thinking... Socks??? She is officially off her rocker!!! But I have to do color contrast and "It has to be in a theme"... so Socks. 6 photos of contrasting socks. Im a genius and you all know it. So yeah... I have more to say but I can't make it really public... so will write later!!!