Again

[charred_soul]

I came to the realization that all i really want is for someone to hold me as i fall to pieces and my whole world falls apart and there is finally no more hope for me. I think I found a person who i can finally abore and possible even spend the rest of my life with in a romantic and friendship way. why is it that i can get a random guy to fuck me but i can never seem to have a guy. its almost as if there is a huge block in front of me that i can't get past. i would love to be with him but i can't and i would love to run away from this whole situation but i care top much to call it quits. i know in the end i'm just going to end up hurting my self and i'm already to weak to handle that. so why don't i do the right thing and save myself from getting hurt and just leave him, because i care for him and i'm attached!

the two worest mistakes that i could ever make i've just made them. there is no way out for me there will be no quiting on my part. i will be the one to be hurt again.