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I don't know exactly where I left my heart as it shattered upon the unlevel floor
I left town, all the while never looking back, knowing you were somewhere behind me
The bright lights faded into the steeping grey as dawn gave break to a day
That I never knew was coming, that I never thought worth sharing
I just wanted to end it someway
And now I look around and see all the eyes, they stare into the abyss
As though there weren't anything worth sharing
How could they ever see through my color, the blood and toil I've spilt
Just trying to get away from a phantom in the mountainside
The bitterness of defeat, or maybe the guilt of some deceit
I had performed on one I thought dear, someone I held quite near
To my heart, I never saw it coming
In the dead of night it came to pass that the thing I was missing found me at last
In a torn broken mass hidden deep beneath my form gave way to something new
Within the sight of those who only wished they knew
Dragging me into the arms of many, a beacon somewhere along the horizon
That I may never see my own shoreline
A wave crested upon an unforeseen land, rifled with things creation only understands
The souls there were waxing, though they knew not one from the next
And welcomed one and all without any form of pretext
I think it was a saving grace, to be stranded upon their shore
Losing my own identity as I was pulled back from the brink of death
Into the arms of many
With a smile and a faint trace of a deft perception, my capture was complete
Even as I stood on the sidelines of imminent defeat I wasn't sure
Just who and what army they were for, though I know now they were never sure
Of why I came, or why I should ever wish to be alone on a night as cold as this
A comfort I didn't know, to be held by something such as the reviving spirit
Of a child whose list of friends never knew shame or a hint of trepedation
In the midst of a confusion, I slide
The farthest corners of the playing field are known to those who strive for taste
Only to find there's nothing left; the question remains to turn or to stay
Hoping someone may return for you, maybe on the last of days
An unyielding boy that couldn't possibly know from where I'd come
Or that I'd never intended to stay, only that I had been lost along the way
In the tides of time and place
And now it's been and gone, and I'm beginning to realize that nothing is meant to stay
Nor is it meant to never change, to what end that it may
I wanted something that meant giving up a sense of feeling
It's all the more reason once it's gone to miss
Though human to learn from regrets, it's more to learn from another
And another and another, as the list leads on to other places, other faces
People that welcome, and people that turn away
His grin is deafening, as his voice emits no true sound to my ears
Predetermined in my demise was the way that I chose to die
At the hands of one I gave my life, a folly can be a mistake
Or a test to cheat the rest of grief, a shortcut down a path to someplace new
In the waters that seeth, there may be a pain unforgiving
Only to be spat upon the sands of a shore unrelenting
The people that you meet there, they made the same mistakes
On the shore of the place I call home, there are more than three pair of full house
Though no royal flush likes to try life in the ways that placed us here
Beaten and battered in each others arms, our home our deft perception
As our senses no longer make sense, take the time to realize
Though it might not be real
Into the arms of many, everyone eventually will die
Brought to the shore that no one thinks is worth living for
Caught up by those that live on in the memory of a death
This is known as rebirth to some, only without any reform
This is how the spirit lives on
Without those that it once fed upon.
I left town, all the while never looking back, knowing you were somewhere behind me
The bright lights faded into the steeping grey as dawn gave break to a day
That I never knew was coming, that I never thought worth sharing
I just wanted to end it someway
And now I look around and see all the eyes, they stare into the abyss
As though there weren't anything worth sharing
How could they ever see through my color, the blood and toil I've spilt
Just trying to get away from a phantom in the mountainside
The bitterness of defeat, or maybe the guilt of some deceit
I had performed on one I thought dear, someone I held quite near
To my heart, I never saw it coming
In the dead of night it came to pass that the thing I was missing found me at last
In a torn broken mass hidden deep beneath my form gave way to something new
Within the sight of those who only wished they knew
Dragging me into the arms of many, a beacon somewhere along the horizon
That I may never see my own shoreline
A wave crested upon an unforeseen land, rifled with things creation only understands
The souls there were waxing, though they knew not one from the next
And welcomed one and all without any form of pretext
I think it was a saving grace, to be stranded upon their shore
Losing my own identity as I was pulled back from the brink of death
Into the arms of many
With a smile and a faint trace of a deft perception, my capture was complete
Even as I stood on the sidelines of imminent defeat I wasn't sure
Just who and what army they were for, though I know now they were never sure
Of why I came, or why I should ever wish to be alone on a night as cold as this
A comfort I didn't know, to be held by something such as the reviving spirit
Of a child whose list of friends never knew shame or a hint of trepedation
In the midst of a confusion, I slide
The farthest corners of the playing field are known to those who strive for taste
Only to find there's nothing left; the question remains to turn or to stay
Hoping someone may return for you, maybe on the last of days
An unyielding boy that couldn't possibly know from where I'd come
Or that I'd never intended to stay, only that I had been lost along the way
In the tides of time and place
And now it's been and gone, and I'm beginning to realize that nothing is meant to stay
Nor is it meant to never change, to what end that it may
I wanted something that meant giving up a sense of feeling
It's all the more reason once it's gone to miss
Though human to learn from regrets, it's more to learn from another
And another and another, as the list leads on to other places, other faces
People that welcome, and people that turn away
His grin is deafening, as his voice emits no true sound to my ears
Predetermined in my demise was the way that I chose to die
At the hands of one I gave my life, a folly can be a mistake
Or a test to cheat the rest of grief, a shortcut down a path to someplace new
In the waters that seeth, there may be a pain unforgiving
Only to be spat upon the sands of a shore unrelenting
The people that you meet there, they made the same mistakes
On the shore of the place I call home, there are more than three pair of full house
Though no royal flush likes to try life in the ways that placed us here
Beaten and battered in each others arms, our home our deft perception
As our senses no longer make sense, take the time to realize
Though it might not be real
Into the arms of many, everyone eventually will die
Brought to the shore that no one thinks is worth living for
Caught up by those that live on in the memory of a death
This is known as rebirth to some, only without any reform
This is how the spirit lives on
Without those that it once fed upon.