May 1st 2004
Wow, I turned 20 years old yesterday. I feel like a part in me has now awakened... Yesterday was a great day. The angels, good spirits and my peopa were with me all day yesterday. They helped me work out alot of my problems and made me realize alot of things. I give so much thanks for those good spirits. I actually cried because of happiness yesterday. I think it was the first time that has ever happened to me for real. The day went well and when night came the vibe was kinda shot. Nobody was happy or doing anything. Actually i take that back. Not everybody was like that. Just a select few people couldn't get over whatever pety bullshit they were upset about. They couldn't get over it for me on my birthday. So that sucked. And I didn't hear from Jenny Smith or Lauren on my birthday so that kinda sucked. But Lauren called me sometime last night when I was sleeping and apologized that she didn't call because she was sleeping. So that was cool. I was upset that everybody was down and stuff on my birthday night and all the previous nights were fun as hell. I realized something though, they showed up. I got to hang out with people that I really care about on my birthday and that's all that really matters. So I have peace about it. Yesterday during the day was cool because alot of people were thinking about me and I could feel it. It was, all in all, probably the best birthday ever. Very sentimental and meaningful birthday. I can tell people care. So I have peace about almost everything. There are, of course, things that still need to be worked out. But that's what life is all about...problems...how you deal with them, how you react and how you control them as much as you can. If you have peace about everything, as much as you can, then everything will be fine. Everything will work out. PEACE__