Insanity. Pure Insanity
Hi. Have I told you that I'm going crazy? There are a lot of things that are stressing me out and I've pretty much stopped sleeping. But what's really frustrating is that one of these stressors is STILL HIM. Most of the time it's a soft white noise but occasionally, like today, it becomes a full-on clamor that makes me want to smash my head into a wall. To scream at the top of my lungs. To send him an email demanding that he tell me that this is still how he really wants it to be.
After 9 months, the email is written and is ready to be sent.
Do not press send. Do not press send. Do not press send.
But.
What's the worst that would happen? He decides he doesn't like me? Ha! He couldn't hurt me any more than he already has. I know that sending the email would be selfish and pathetic but at this point, if it finally gets me out of this purgatory, isn't it worth it?
After 9 months, the email is written and is ready to be sent.
Do not press send. Do not press send. Do not press send.
But.
What's the worst that would happen? He decides he doesn't like me? Ha! He couldn't hurt me any more than he already has. I know that sending the email would be selfish and pathetic but at this point, if it finally gets me out of this purgatory, isn't it worth it?