More is more
Tonight's concert was perfectly wrong. For once, I wish I had been five years younger again.
My opportunity to be all one can stand with an usher passed so slowly in the lobby. It was a flawless interview, considering all the people swerving between us to pass tickets and me waiting for the gay entourage to arrive. I've wondered about the details of this usher for a couple months now and I learned everything I needed to know. Truth be told, I attended tonight's concert mostly for this single interaction.
He's simply another gorgeous piano player, a freshman, not a music student, and he wore a scarf. That's all I needed to know before taking my seat.
Throughout the concert, I thought how horrible it was to be sitting next to these people I know and hang out with all the time. I spend so much time with these people and I often wonder why? Tonight, they made so much noise and needless conversation in the middle of movements. I was nostalgic for the times when I knew nobody at these concerts and I only concentrated on the music. I wish I had been there on a date, with only one person instead of 15, and I wish they cared so much about focus and intimacy with the musicians as I do. I've had dates like that in this concert hall, and those people are long gone. What a mistake tonight was!
Sometimes I use these orchestra concerts to collect my thoughts and release stress. It's often very refreshing and beautiful.
I declined tonight's offers for coffee afterward, and it was liberating. Tomorrow's another day, another month, another concert, another movie, another coffee. Same faces, motives, behaviors, and expectations. There will be less complaining!
I'm so glad it's December. I'm designing a new me with a new life.
My opportunity to be all one can stand with an usher passed so slowly in the lobby. It was a flawless interview, considering all the people swerving between us to pass tickets and me waiting for the gay entourage to arrive. I've wondered about the details of this usher for a couple months now and I learned everything I needed to know. Truth be told, I attended tonight's concert mostly for this single interaction.
He's simply another gorgeous piano player, a freshman, not a music student, and he wore a scarf. That's all I needed to know before taking my seat.
Throughout the concert, I thought how horrible it was to be sitting next to these people I know and hang out with all the time. I spend so much time with these people and I often wonder why? Tonight, they made so much noise and needless conversation in the middle of movements. I was nostalgic for the times when I knew nobody at these concerts and I only concentrated on the music. I wish I had been there on a date, with only one person instead of 15, and I wish they cared so much about focus and intimacy with the musicians as I do. I've had dates like that in this concert hall, and those people are long gone. What a mistake tonight was!
Sometimes I use these orchestra concerts to collect my thoughts and release stress. It's often very refreshing and beautiful.
I declined tonight's offers for coffee afterward, and it was liberating. Tomorrow's another day, another month, another concert, another movie, another coffee. Same faces, motives, behaviors, and expectations. There will be less complaining!
I'm so glad it's December. I'm designing a new me with a new life.