i wonder about humanity's fascination with feathers.
the other day i was babysitting and the six-year-old asked me if i believe in christ. she said she believes in christ, and that makes her a christian. i told her i didn't know. there are many things i could have said to that girl, but her mother was still there, and watching me, and i froze up. i had no idea what to say. its not really my place to talk to her about religion, is it?
i think i will talk to her about it next time.
i am trying to understand why it is so much easier for me to focus on and deal with trivial things, or things that only pertain to my life at this very moment, than to do the things that are going to benefit the rest of my life, or at least my semi-distant future. i have been avoiding scholarship applications like the plague. instead of applying to get money for school, i have been scouring facebook for various trifles of information, having drunken adventures, and sorting through relational bullshit to try to find out where it is each of my relationships is going. i would much prefer to do any of these things than to fill out applications. this madness needs to stop. the osac is due on monday. i'm screwed.
in other news, i've decided to start using livejournal again. i'm not writing these days, and i think it.. what's the word.. "hace falta" in my life. it is missing, lacking. anyway, a journal is the easiest way to start writing again. plus if its online, i can't lose it. and i like comments.
now i have to go to my fiddle lesson. i will come back later and bitch and moan and write a stereotypical fuck everything livejournal rant. it will be great, just you wait.
i think i will talk to her about it next time.
i am trying to understand why it is so much easier for me to focus on and deal with trivial things, or things that only pertain to my life at this very moment, than to do the things that are going to benefit the rest of my life, or at least my semi-distant future. i have been avoiding scholarship applications like the plague. instead of applying to get money for school, i have been scouring facebook for various trifles of information, having drunken adventures, and sorting through relational bullshit to try to find out where it is each of my relationships is going. i would much prefer to do any of these things than to fill out applications. this madness needs to stop. the osac is due on monday. i'm screwed.
in other news, i've decided to start using livejournal again. i'm not writing these days, and i think it.. what's the word.. "hace falta" in my life. it is missing, lacking. anyway, a journal is the easiest way to start writing again. plus if its online, i can't lose it. and i like comments.
now i have to go to my fiddle lesson. i will come back later and bitch and moan and write a stereotypical fuck everything livejournal rant. it will be great, just you wait.