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Is it possible that everything I thought of as tangible,real,steady and reliable is actually the opposite?
According to today's events,yes.
Cure and I are no more.While it pains me to write this,what hurts even more is the circumstances that led to this outcome.He cheated.
Two words...one sentence...a million consequences.
We seemed so happy.So perfect.So in-love.And we'd just done the mandatory 'meet the family thanksgiving' and it seemed to all be going so ridiculously well...nothing works out this well in reality.Fairytales do NOT exsist,at least not in the world of Sadie.
I'd heard that he was chatting with this girl who he had met before me,and while it bothered me a bit,I wasn't about to become 'that' girlfriend.Then,just like that she was calling him and texting and oddly enough,he seemed to be spending a bunch more time with her than me.I'm not the jealous type,maybe a little,and when I confronted him...it all crashed down.
"You're too much Sadie."
"She's easy to love."
"She doesn't make me pay for someone else's mistakes."
How do you respond to that?Simply enough,I drank too much and made a couple bad choices and when I bumped into him later that night,I pretty much embarassed the heck out of both of us in front of quite a large group of our mutual friends.
Now in the moment,my decision to reem his behind felt justified.In its aftermath was a text from Cure which said:"Don't call me.don't text.Sadie,we're done."
I took the end of us like a big girl after that,I went to work today and spent the evening with my family.I always knew we would end,maybe not in such tragic fashion,but I knew.Cure and I had a relationship that wasn't meant to last.We were together for as long as it took for each of us to learn a lesson that we were here to teach the other,and then off into the world as different people.
That's how I see it.Now.
Last night,not so much.
Maybe my lesson for 2009 is to learn to love myself.To be solo for a bit.To enjoy the beauty of a quiet moment for me.Not to share with a significant other.
Or maybe I'm supposed to start dating women?
Love is Love is Love.
But mostly,it seems God wants me to learn about myself and love me before loving another.
And I'm ok with that.
For now.
Thus,another chapter of my storied love life closes.
And a new carton of ice cream shall open...
Goodnight.
Sleep tight.
Don't forget your nightlight.
Sadie.
According to today's events,yes.
Cure and I are no more.While it pains me to write this,what hurts even more is the circumstances that led to this outcome.He cheated.
Two words...one sentence...a million consequences.
We seemed so happy.So perfect.So in-love.And we'd just done the mandatory 'meet the family thanksgiving' and it seemed to all be going so ridiculously well...nothing works out this well in reality.Fairytales do NOT exsist,at least not in the world of Sadie.
I'd heard that he was chatting with this girl who he had met before me,and while it bothered me a bit,I wasn't about to become 'that' girlfriend.Then,just like that she was calling him and texting and oddly enough,he seemed to be spending a bunch more time with her than me.I'm not the jealous type,maybe a little,and when I confronted him...it all crashed down.
"You're too much Sadie."
"She's easy to love."
"She doesn't make me pay for someone else's mistakes."
How do you respond to that?Simply enough,I drank too much and made a couple bad choices and when I bumped into him later that night,I pretty much embarassed the heck out of both of us in front of quite a large group of our mutual friends.
Now in the moment,my decision to reem his behind felt justified.In its aftermath was a text from Cure which said:"Don't call me.don't text.Sadie,we're done."
I took the end of us like a big girl after that,I went to work today and spent the evening with my family.I always knew we would end,maybe not in such tragic fashion,but I knew.Cure and I had a relationship that wasn't meant to last.We were together for as long as it took for each of us to learn a lesson that we were here to teach the other,and then off into the world as different people.
That's how I see it.Now.
Last night,not so much.
Maybe my lesson for 2009 is to learn to love myself.To be solo for a bit.To enjoy the beauty of a quiet moment for me.Not to share with a significant other.
Or maybe I'm supposed to start dating women?
Love is Love is Love.
But mostly,it seems God wants me to learn about myself and love me before loving another.
And I'm ok with that.
For now.
Thus,another chapter of my storied love life closes.
And a new carton of ice cream shall open...
Goodnight.
Sleep tight.
Don't forget your nightlight.
Sadie.