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ive never been so completely confused and stressed and worried in my entire life. all in one week.
first, the thing with the cops.
then having someone choose drinking, girls, college life over me.
then i meet a new guy, only one of my good friends is interested in him, but we start talking anyways. she finds out and hates me.
then the person i loved the most hurts me in every way... devastates me.
then my dad finds that his pills are missing from his bathroom.. so some drug head little girl stole them from my family.
what the hell has come over my life?? it seems like its just spiraling downward really really quickly. how do i get out of this??? all i know is that ill be moving soon. getting away from crosby, meeting new people. i need a stable man in my life who doesnt bring drama along with him.. but honestly no, i think i need to be alone. by myself. and its not that i dont know who i am, i do. im set in stone and this is who i am and im head strong and determined and i know that i discovered myself within this past yr of my life, but i also know that i need be alone without family, without boyfriends, without people that dictate my life.
im so stressed. never before have i been this stressed. God help me through this.
oh, and i hate you for doing this to me.
first, the thing with the cops.
then having someone choose drinking, girls, college life over me.
then i meet a new guy, only one of my good friends is interested in him, but we start talking anyways. she finds out and hates me.
then the person i loved the most hurts me in every way... devastates me.
then my dad finds that his pills are missing from his bathroom.. so some drug head little girl stole them from my family.
what the hell has come over my life?? it seems like its just spiraling downward really really quickly. how do i get out of this??? all i know is that ill be moving soon. getting away from crosby, meeting new people. i need a stable man in my life who doesnt bring drama along with him.. but honestly no, i think i need to be alone. by myself. and its not that i dont know who i am, i do. im set in stone and this is who i am and im head strong and determined and i know that i discovered myself within this past yr of my life, but i also know that i need be alone without family, without boyfriends, without people that dictate my life.
im so stressed. never before have i been this stressed. God help me through this.
oh, and i hate you for doing this to me.