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who am i kidding??? i keep going back and forth with my feelings. no wonder im so depressed all of the time. i cant decide what it is that my hearts telling me to do. if only love were layed out in front of you.. if only we didnt have to go through all of the wrong ones to find the real deal. and when do we know if its real??? all i know is that love shouldnt be so back and forth from one person to another. its like playing catch. "you have my heart now, why dont you throw it back to me because i cant decide if i love you or not." then when you realise you love the person and decide to stop playing the game, they decide that they dont love you anymore and so on and so forth. thats not love. thats shit. thats games. and im sick of that.
so tell me men, what is it about me that makes you want me so much in the beginning, but once i give you my heart you decide its no longer worth it??? that what i have to offer is just not right for you? and every time this happens, it crushes me of course, but i build myself back up again because i know its not me.. its them. i know im more than enough woman. i know that im one hell of a good person and i have everything to offer someone. only a crazy man would pass up the opportunity to be with me. call me vain, but im strong, im honest with you and myself, and i know my capabilities....
maybe thats why i should move on. just set everything aside, grow into the woman im meant to be.. strong, beautiful, wise. maybe i should be on my own to do this??? maybe i dont need a man because when i do, i try my hardest to find my happiness in them when i should be finding it within myself? that way every time they sound like they dont need me, or dont care.. i wont be upset. maybe for once i should open up my eyes and realise that i dont need THEM. maybe i should be strong...
maybe i will. i will. starting now.
i dont need you anymore.
so tell me men, what is it about me that makes you want me so much in the beginning, but once i give you my heart you decide its no longer worth it??? that what i have to offer is just not right for you? and every time this happens, it crushes me of course, but i build myself back up again because i know its not me.. its them. i know im more than enough woman. i know that im one hell of a good person and i have everything to offer someone. only a crazy man would pass up the opportunity to be with me. call me vain, but im strong, im honest with you and myself, and i know my capabilities....
maybe thats why i should move on. just set everything aside, grow into the woman im meant to be.. strong, beautiful, wise. maybe i should be on my own to do this??? maybe i dont need a man because when i do, i try my hardest to find my happiness in them when i should be finding it within myself? that way every time they sound like they dont need me, or dont care.. i wont be upset. maybe for once i should open up my eyes and realise that i dont need THEM. maybe i should be strong...
maybe i will. i will. starting now.
i dont need you anymore.