Real Update
So, school is going and going and going some more. Six classes. I can feel it piling up a bit. But I'm determained and Cadance is determained, to get a 3.3 this semster. That would bring my GPA to a 2.5. Right now, I'm just taking a breather before going right back to reading.
DZ is good. I'm a Rho Chi, which I'm not happy with. I'm not happy with some things, like how they turn out or are runned, but you can say that for everything you do. It's better than last year and it feels like it will be better than last semster. I'm no longer Historian but I am still Ways and Means Chair. I'm determained to do much better and to actually do it the way I want to do it. I'm not getting pushed into anything.
Speaking of activies, I walked into Holly Frye's office to give some ideas for Homecoming. She liked them so much, I am now Co-Chair of Homecoming. Holy shit.
Love life is going alright. I don't have anyone special but at least I'm not with anyone where I would be miserable. Besides, there's always Keith for funness.
There are a few guys I like though. One's a good friend who liked another friend. I don't see us working out, but we're closer and I like that. As the song goes, it's just a little crush.
The second guy is a friend of a friend. Lol, he shares a name with my late guinea pig.
And it seems as if Jeremy is back. This I don't understand. Like, after everything that happened between us, I tryed to distance myself. I saw that I like him and would have dated him. But on distance, he's not what I needed. So I wanted just a fuck buddy thing. But that wasn't working out for its own reasons. So I distance myself, cause I felt used. When you feel for someone who doesnt feel for you, just go and do your own thing for a while. And he didn't seem to mind. Like three months go by.
Then I see him at Tony's two Wednesday ago. (Wednesday the first week back.) And he was a drunk asshole. Like, he drapped himself all over me, demanding that we be cool, asking others to tell me that we should be cool, solicting their advice. Even Maria turned to me and said he was an ass to you then and hes being an ass right now. He kept making me hug him. Like, he was really upset that we're not friends anymore or something.
Today he knocked on the door and wanted to say Hi. I was either in class or at Wally World. He IMs me to tell me this that he just wanted to say Hi. Then he invites me to his party tonight and before I say anything, he says its a small party. The first night we were "together" I had told him I wasn't comfortable at big parties because I was raped at one. There's some caring obvisously.
This is what I don't understand. I didn't want to be his friend and he didn't want to be mine. Why else would we go three-four months without talking? He's never presonally invited me to a party, just me. I don't know, am I worring about nothing?
Give me advice!
DZ Love and Mine
Mayhem
KM 535
DZ is good. I'm a Rho Chi, which I'm not happy with. I'm not happy with some things, like how they turn out or are runned, but you can say that for everything you do. It's better than last year and it feels like it will be better than last semster. I'm no longer Historian but I am still Ways and Means Chair. I'm determained to do much better and to actually do it the way I want to do it. I'm not getting pushed into anything.
Speaking of activies, I walked into Holly Frye's office to give some ideas for Homecoming. She liked them so much, I am now Co-Chair of Homecoming. Holy shit.
Love life is going alright. I don't have anyone special but at least I'm not with anyone where I would be miserable. Besides, there's always Keith for funness.
There are a few guys I like though. One's a good friend who liked another friend. I don't see us working out, but we're closer and I like that. As the song goes, it's just a little crush.
The second guy is a friend of a friend. Lol, he shares a name with my late guinea pig.
And it seems as if Jeremy is back. This I don't understand. Like, after everything that happened between us, I tryed to distance myself. I saw that I like him and would have dated him. But on distance, he's not what I needed. So I wanted just a fuck buddy thing. But that wasn't working out for its own reasons. So I distance myself, cause I felt used. When you feel for someone who doesnt feel for you, just go and do your own thing for a while. And he didn't seem to mind. Like three months go by.
Then I see him at Tony's two Wednesday ago. (Wednesday the first week back.) And he was a drunk asshole. Like, he drapped himself all over me, demanding that we be cool, asking others to tell me that we should be cool, solicting their advice. Even Maria turned to me and said he was an ass to you then and hes being an ass right now. He kept making me hug him. Like, he was really upset that we're not friends anymore or something.
Today he knocked on the door and wanted to say Hi. I was either in class or at Wally World. He IMs me to tell me this that he just wanted to say Hi. Then he invites me to his party tonight and before I say anything, he says its a small party. The first night we were "together" I had told him I wasn't comfortable at big parties because I was raped at one. There's some caring obvisously.
This is what I don't understand. I didn't want to be his friend and he didn't want to be mine. Why else would we go three-four months without talking? He's never presonally invited me to a party, just me. I don't know, am I worring about nothing?
Give me advice!
DZ Love and Mine
Mayhem
KM 535