(no subject)
I don't know why I get motivated when I feel something like this. It's odd, I become stronger and meaner. Whenever this feeling occurs, it's either I want to do something honorable or I want to kill. Tangina. It's 10:20 AM and it's weird, I should have suicidal ideation but it's not happening. Oh well, I feel good because I've accomplished a lot already. My review in Berkeley will start in April, I guess. Punyeta, that's a great experience though. I feel like cursing someone today, I am so hyper. What's happening to me?! I'm reading two books, one in the morning and the other before I sleep, I wish I don't get mixed up. Anyway, I want to go to Europe in September. The people here are going there for their studies, they're not contented with Harvard. What a life. I feel shame for myself. I need to do something great. I am not contented, it would never gonna be in my system if I stay here. I have to fix my schedule first. Punyeta, I am so hyper, I can't stop my feet. A tour to Europe for my birthday is really good but too bad I can't just go there alone, anyway, it's the scenery that counts. I wanna to go to the gloomiest place there and meet a lot of people. Anyway, I was in the ear piercing store yesterday and I wasn't allowed because I'm not yet 18, they were fucking asking for my I.D.. Fuck. I guess I have to do it myself, I know it won't hurt that much for my cartilage when I'm in my sedative.