scene 59
To the City - to you I owe tremendous thanks.
You enabled me to say goodbye.
I never would have done that had it not been for you, and to me it means everything.
Thank you.
Blue - dearest, kindest Blue. Not every girl gets a guardian angel who dedicates songs to her and is an amazing swing dancer. I was, and still am, very, very lucky. I would have gotten lost long ago if it hadn’t been for you.
Rue - you’re graceful and elegant in ways I’ve always wanted to be. You were one of the first people who was kind to me when I arrived here, and I’ve felt a special connection to you ever since. You’ve always encouraged me to rely on inner strength that sometimes I wasn’t sure I had. Thank you for that, for everything.
And Ron. Where do I even begin? Is there anything in this City we haven’t weathered and muddled through? You are literally my oldest, most trusted friend here. I can’t imagine being here without you, and quite honestly, I don’t know if living any place you aren’t will ever feel natural. You’re an exceptional person. Don’t ever doubt that.
Harry, I thought I felt like I knew you when I first met you because of Ron…and Ginny, and Neville…but that’s not entirely true. Yes, I felt like I’d known you longer because of them, but I realized that what I really recognized in you was something I wasn’t even sure existed. You are everything a hero ought to be.
Fly. I remember, during our first conversation, you told me that things weren’t always what we expected. And you weren’t what I expected. I knew you’d be gallant and noble, but I didn’t know you’d be such a kind friend - that you’d be good at carving pumpkins, that you’d have such a sense of humor, that you’d be such a good listener and give such good advice. Thank you, Fly.
Misi, you’ve helped me realize, over and over again, just how important it is to have your family close…that family doesn’t have to be restricted to the one you’re born into. I’ll smile every time I think of the fabulous messes you and I got into with Rose and the Doctor.
Doctor, I’ve told you before you’ve been a mentor to me, but the truth is, you’re more like the adopted dad I never had. And you deserve to know that.
Mulder, you’re one of the rare few who has always treated me like an adult, like I could handle anything without always needing help and copious instructions. That means a lot to me.
I think I will always be just as astonished by you, Lestat, as I am delighted. You, prince and rock star, saint and idol all in one, remind me that paradoxes can exist and can be wonderful things. The world may never be entirely ready for you but you should never stop surprising us.
Raven? You’re amazing. You can wear heels and a gown to a wedding all to support your friend and levitate at the same time.
Claudine, you have one of the loveliest, most sincerely heart-warming smiles I’ve ever seen, and seeing it always makes me smile, too.
Harry and Ana - you two are my light at the end of the tunnel, do you know that? You should. It’s something I’ve wanted to tell you for a long time.
Lucy. You never stop believing, never stop hoping, never stop allowing your laughter to brighten even the darkest places. Don’t ever lose that ability - that is a very rare, very special gift. It’s helped me more than I can express.
Prince Caspian, you rescued me once, and I thanked you for that. What I haven’t said is that you continually rescue me just by being your kind, attentive self. Thank you.
Anita, you have strength and determination that I will always admire, and you continually use them to help all those around you, putting them before yourself. You’re incredible, and I am incredibly blessed to have you as a friend.
Sakura. Sakura, I don’t know if I told you this before, but I must admit I had a secret reason for wanting to introduce myself when you arrived here in the City recently. There’s something about you that I felt I recognized. It was a bit like looking at pieces of me that still were wonderfully, exclusively yours. If that makes sense. If I had a sister, I imagine she would be like you.
Megumi. The City makes some terrific errors sometimes, but at others, it somehow manages to get some things indescribably right. This was most definitely one of them. You are the best adopted mom a girl could ask for. I will always cherish every memory. Every single one.
{ PRIVATE. Not hackable. Not intended for you. }
It’s my first Thanksgiving away from you.
I know we talked about this happening before - last year you had that big show going on in the city, you didn’t think you’d be able to take time off, and besides, Jeremy had rented the cabin that weekend. I was glad you had told me all this over the phone. Over the phone, all you could hear was my voice saying that it was fine, that I understood, that I was happy for you. (And it was, and I did, and I was.) You were always doing amazing, dazzling things, things I always wanted to do, things only you could pull off.
But you came anyway. I knew you couldn’t, I accepted it, but still. You came. You came and I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry, but it didn’t matter, because you were here, you were hugging me. I had too many questions; they all came out, jumbled, at the same time, and all you did was laugh. We were out on the porch, half-freezing, too happy to care, and everything seemed in that moment completely, impossibly perfect.
Happy Thanksgiving, Mom. I love you.
I miss you.
You enabled me to say goodbye.
I never would have done that had it not been for you, and to me it means everything.
Thank you.
Blue - dearest, kindest Blue. Not every girl gets a guardian angel who dedicates songs to her and is an amazing swing dancer. I was, and still am, very, very lucky. I would have gotten lost long ago if it hadn’t been for you.
Rue - you’re graceful and elegant in ways I’ve always wanted to be. You were one of the first people who was kind to me when I arrived here, and I’ve felt a special connection to you ever since. You’ve always encouraged me to rely on inner strength that sometimes I wasn’t sure I had. Thank you for that, for everything.
And Ron. Where do I even begin? Is there anything in this City we haven’t weathered and muddled through? You are literally my oldest, most trusted friend here. I can’t imagine being here without you, and quite honestly, I don’t know if living any place you aren’t will ever feel natural. You’re an exceptional person. Don’t ever doubt that.
Harry, I thought I felt like I knew you when I first met you because of Ron…and Ginny, and Neville…but that’s not entirely true. Yes, I felt like I’d known you longer because of them, but I realized that what I really recognized in you was something I wasn’t even sure existed. You are everything a hero ought to be.
Fly. I remember, during our first conversation, you told me that things weren’t always what we expected. And you weren’t what I expected. I knew you’d be gallant and noble, but I didn’t know you’d be such a kind friend - that you’d be good at carving pumpkins, that you’d have such a sense of humor, that you’d be such a good listener and give such good advice. Thank you, Fly.
Misi, you’ve helped me realize, over and over again, just how important it is to have your family close…that family doesn’t have to be restricted to the one you’re born into. I’ll smile every time I think of the fabulous messes you and I got into with Rose and the Doctor.
Doctor, I’ve told you before you’ve been a mentor to me, but the truth is, you’re more like the adopted dad I never had. And you deserve to know that.
Mulder, you’re one of the rare few who has always treated me like an adult, like I could handle anything without always needing help and copious instructions. That means a lot to me.
I think I will always be just as astonished by you, Lestat, as I am delighted. You, prince and rock star, saint and idol all in one, remind me that paradoxes can exist and can be wonderful things. The world may never be entirely ready for you but you should never stop surprising us.
Raven? You’re amazing. You can wear heels and a gown to a wedding all to support your friend and levitate at the same time.
Claudine, you have one of the loveliest, most sincerely heart-warming smiles I’ve ever seen, and seeing it always makes me smile, too.
Harry and Ana - you two are my light at the end of the tunnel, do you know that? You should. It’s something I’ve wanted to tell you for a long time.
Lucy. You never stop believing, never stop hoping, never stop allowing your laughter to brighten even the darkest places. Don’t ever lose that ability - that is a very rare, very special gift. It’s helped me more than I can express.
Prince Caspian, you rescued me once, and I thanked you for that. What I haven’t said is that you continually rescue me just by being your kind, attentive self. Thank you.
Anita, you have strength and determination that I will always admire, and you continually use them to help all those around you, putting them before yourself. You’re incredible, and I am incredibly blessed to have you as a friend.
Sakura. Sakura, I don’t know if I told you this before, but I must admit I had a secret reason for wanting to introduce myself when you arrived here in the City recently. There’s something about you that I felt I recognized. It was a bit like looking at pieces of me that still were wonderfully, exclusively yours. If that makes sense. If I had a sister, I imagine she would be like you.
Megumi. The City makes some terrific errors sometimes, but at others, it somehow manages to get some things indescribably right. This was most definitely one of them. You are the best adopted mom a girl could ask for. I will always cherish every memory. Every single one.
{ PRIVATE. Not hackable. Not intended for you. }
It’s my first Thanksgiving away from you.
I know we talked about this happening before - last year you had that big show going on in the city, you didn’t think you’d be able to take time off, and besides, Jeremy had rented the cabin that weekend. I was glad you had told me all this over the phone. Over the phone, all you could hear was my voice saying that it was fine, that I understood, that I was happy for you. (And it was, and I did, and I was.) You were always doing amazing, dazzling things, things I always wanted to do, things only you could pull off.
But you came anyway. I knew you couldn’t, I accepted it, but still. You came. You came and I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry, but it didn’t matter, because you were here, you were hugging me. I had too many questions; they all came out, jumbled, at the same time, and all you did was laugh. We were out on the porch, half-freezing, too happy to care, and everything seemed in that moment completely, impossibly perfect.
Happy Thanksgiving, Mom. I love you.
I miss you.