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I can't believe it has been a month since I found out Tara was alive...or an angel, or whatever you call it. I have to admit that it has been strange though, once we got past the initial freak out (on my part) and me trying to be the bigger person and telling her that she should focus on Makayla more than wanting to be with me, it actually felt nice to have her back. Not that I was still spiraling or anything, but to have the one woman back that I truly loved more than life itself, it felt almost like for once things were going my way.
Not that I am complaining about the last 9 years, if I didn't want to be a part of the fight I wouldn't have stood by when everything was going to hell...not that it wasn't all exciting from time to time, but I could have used less of being held hostage, or nearly killed, or my personal favorite losing control and trying to end the world. Not that I am complaing though, if it hadn't been for the way things have turned out I wouldn't be the person I am now. I know how to control the magicks now and I have a purpose, past the basic research and computer hacking. Though I do like all of that, it just isn't all I like to do.
Right now though I am more focused on spending time with Tara, as much as the elders will allow being as she does have to work with Makayla. I am just happy for any time I get, as I still feel as if I don't deserve it.
Not that I am complaining about the last 9 years, if I didn't want to be a part of the fight I wouldn't have stood by when everything was going to hell...not that it wasn't all exciting from time to time, but I could have used less of being held hostage, or nearly killed, or my personal favorite losing control and trying to end the world. Not that I am complaing though, if it hadn't been for the way things have turned out I wouldn't be the person I am now. I know how to control the magicks now and I have a purpose, past the basic research and computer hacking. Though I do like all of that, it just isn't all I like to do.
Right now though I am more focused on spending time with Tara, as much as the elders will allow being as she does have to work with Makayla. I am just happy for any time I get, as I still feel as if I don't deserve it.