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Faith: "Juuuulie," I moan, shivering as you move down my body. "Oh fuck baby."
Julie: I finally make it to your thighs, biting and sucking along the way.
Faith: "God yes!" I cry out, feeling your teeth nip at me. "Fuck you know what I like."
Julie: I giggle a bit as I move just a bit closer to your warmth. "You want this?"
Faith: "Oh yes please, god please Julie," I moan, spreading my thighs for you.
Julie: I want to tease some more, but I don't think it appropriate. I decide instead to lean in and nip at your warm wet lips.
Faith: “Oh fuck," I gasp, one hand tangling gently in your hair, the other gripping the sheets tightly.
Julie: I press my tongue just slightly into your warmth, flicking it gently at first.
Faith: "Oh god, fuck yes," I moan, sliding my knees open wider as I press up into your mouth.
Julie: I giggle a bit as I press my tongue deeper into you. I can tell you love me inside of you like this.
Faith: "So good, god Julie I love the way you make me feel," I moan loudly, my hands moving up to tangle in my own hair, pulling hard.
Julie: I smile against you, my tongue flicking in and out and sliding two fingers into you.
Faith: My hips buck up as you slide your fingers in, my walls clenching around your fingers. "God, please don't stop," I gasp.
Julie: I pull back "Why would I?" I ask then plunge my tongue back into you thrusting my fingers hard into you.
Faith: "Fuck!!" I cry out as you dive back down on me, my hands sliding down to my breasts as I play with my nipples.
Julie: I look up as I flick my tongue inside you, seeing what you are doing only makes me work harder to make you cum.
Faith: I groan and tremble, my body feeling hot and cold all at once. "Oh Julie, fuck."
Julie: I pull my mouth back "you taste good." I smile as my fingers continue to thrust in and out of you.
Faith: I moan loudly and buck hard against you. "Oh god, you're gonna make me cum, Jules," I gasp, feeling my walls tighten, my entire body tensing.
Julie: "Cum for me" I whisper and then plunge my tongue back into you.
Faith: "JULIE!!!" I scream, my body exploding as I cum over your mouth and fingers, my hands gripping the sheets hard as my back arches.
Julie: I lick you clean then move off of you. "You are so good."
Faith: I lay limply against the bed, chuckling softly. "You're the good one."
Julie: "Nope, that’s all you."
Faith: "Hey, you're the one that just made me cum," I pant, slowly catching my breath.
Julie: "You started it" I joke.
Faith: I laugh, "No way, you started it with the bath."
Julie: “I had to do something." I say as I kiss you.
Faith: "You did huh?" I ask as I return the kiss gently, lifting my hand to stroke your face gently.
Julie: "Yes" I say honestly
Faith: "Why?" I ask softly, looking into your eyes.
Julie: "Couldn't have you drinking yourself into a coma." I say honestly
Faith: I blush slightly. "How'd you know I was drinking?"
Julie: "Ok you could smell it from a mile away." I exclaim rather bluntly
Faith: "Oh, nice. No wonder you suggested a bath," I say, mentally kicking myself.
Julie: "Its ok." I whisper as I lean in and kiss you. "It let you calm down enough to let me take care of you."
Faith: I close my eyes and lean into the kiss. "You're so amazing," I whisper against your lips. "I love you, Julie."
Julie: "I love you too,” I whisper
Faith: "Please don't leave me," I ask, feeling pathetic, but needing to hear you say it.
Julie: "never" I whisper and kiss you "Never ever."
Faith: I kiss you back, pressing my body against yours, just wanting to feel you. I lay my head against your shoulder and try to relax. "I believe you," I say softly.
Julie: "Good" I say my hands running over your body helping you relax.
Faith: "Thank you," I say softly, sighing under your touch.
Julie: "faith" I whisper
Faith: "Mmm?" I ask, looking up at you.
Julie: "Stay with me tonight?" I ask hopeful.
Faith: I feel a shadow cross my eyes and I look down. "I don't think I should," I say softly.
Julie: "Why?" I ask as I cling to you.
Faith: "Groo'll be back and you don't need me bringin' you down, you've got enough on your mind right now," I say quietly, almost a whisper.
Julie: "Stop that" I say clinging tighter. "bring me down, I can deal with it as long as you are by my side."
Faith: "Why do you want me here? You've got an amazing man, he loves you more than anything I've ever seen. I mean, I know you love me and I love you, but you don't need me," I say softly, feeling confused.
Julie: “Maybe right now I need you." I say as I rest my head on your shoulder.
Faith: I close my eyes and run my fingers through your hair. "You sure you're not just trying to make me feel better?"
Julie: "I am sure." I say holding you to me. "I need you just as much as you need me." I admit my head resting on your chest.
Faith: I run my fingers through your hair. "Do you really?"
Julie: “yes, really" I close my eyes and hold you tight. "Please" I whisper
Faith: "Okay then. I'll stay for a while," I say softly, wrapping my other arm around you, pulling you to me. "At least till Groo gets back."
Julie: "You worried he will be mad? He won't you know."
Faith: "Kinda. How do you know he won't? I mean, I just had really good sex with his girlfriend," I say with a small smile.
Julie: "Faith" I whisper, "He knows I love you, and that I need you. He isn't the jealous type...at least not as I have seen."
Faith: "Okay. Maybe I just worry too much," I say softly, closing my eyes as I stroke your back softly. "I'll have to leave eventually, though, ya know."
Julie: "Yes, but not before I wake up." I say pleadingly.
Faith: "That's a deal," I say softly. "Assuming you won't leave before I wake up too?" I ask softly.
Julie: "Where would I go?" I ask as I kiss you. "I won't leave."
Faith: "I dunno," I say sheepishly. "Thanks, Julie," I say softly, kissing you back.
Julie: I kiss you passionately then rest my head back on your chest. "I love you." I whisper
Faith: I moan softly as you kiss me, pulling you close to me. "I love you too, Julie."
Julie: I hear your words as I fade off to sleep. I love the feel of you holding me as I fall asleep.
Faith: I close my eyes as I feel you fall asleep, unable to drift off myself, but feeling relatively peaceful, at least for now.
Julie: I don't know how long I was asleep, but I have to admit that waking up in your arms was a complete shock. I thought for sure you would leave...and honestly I wouldn't have been upset at all. "Hey" I whisper.
Faith: "Hey there," I say softly. I didn't sleep at all, but I promised her I'd stay.
Julie: "You do know you didn't really have to stay.." I whisper, "I mean thank you for staying, but I didn't think you really would want to."
Faith: I shrug. "Promised you I would," I say softly. "There's a lot worse places I've stayed than with a beautiful woman asleep in my arms."
Julie: I blush "I am not beautiful, but thank you."
Faith: I smile and kiss your pink cheeks. "Yeah, you are Jules."
Julie: "If you say so." I say softly as I look away.
Faith: "I do say so. Listen, I've got some stuff to do," I say lamely. "You gonna be okay here?"
Julie: "Make me one promise..." I ask softly
Faith: "I'll try," I say, afraid of what you might ask.
Julie: “Don't go drink yourself into a coma" I plead...terrified I will lose you to that.
Faith: "No comas, been there, done that, got the t-shirt."
Julie: I smile a bit at that. "No drinking?" I ask
Faith: I pull away slightly. "Don't think I can promise you that, baby."
Julie: I sigh "Ok.." I say a bit broken hearted. "That’s what you have to go do isn't it?"
Faith: I look down. "I don't know what to say," I whisper.
Julie: "Go do what you have to do...I am here when you want me."
Faith: I lean up on my elbow and look at you. "I always want you, Julie. I just don't know how to deal otherwise, ya know?"
Julie: "All the alcohol does is dull it Faith, it isn't dealing with the pain..." This is one reason why I don't drink much.
Faith: I sigh softly. "Right now I'll take the dull. But I promise not to do anything stupid, I'll lock myself in my room and stuff."
Julie: “Go do whatever you have to do..." I say getting up and pulling a robe on. "I love you, but right now..I can't think of anything to say that won't sound lecture-y"
Faith: I run my hands through my hair and pull on Brandon's t-shirt and boxers that I was wearing. "Will you at least kiss me before I leave?" I ask softly.
Julie: I walk over pushing back the tears and kiss you with all the passion I have in me. "I love you."
Faith: I pull you tightly to me, returning your kiss deeply and looking into your eyes. "I love you too, Julie. I really do."
Julie: "I know you do." I say as I turn and walk into the bathroom, saddened.
Faith: I watch you leave, feeling like I'm going to throw up from the pain I know I'm causing you and my own shattered heart. I walk out of your bedroom and head for mine, alcohol and nicotine the only things on my mind. As I walk back to my bedroom and stop short when I open the door. It's completely cleaned up. There are no bottles of liquor, empty or full, the ashtrays are gone, no cigarettes in sight. I clench my teeth together, punching my fist through the wall. I stalk down the stairs and find Edward in the kitchen. "You fucking son of a bitch."
Edward: “Ahh been back to your room I see." I say with a small smile. "I did it for your own good."
Faith: I walk up to you and push you backward. "Bull shit. You sent me to Julie to manipulate me and you expect me to trust you?!"
Edward: "I did no such thing Faith." I say not remotely frightened by your response. "I did this because you would soon drink yourself into a coma and until we know for certain that you are not pregnant I don't wish for that."
Faith: "Then get me a fucking test so I can start drinking again because this is seriously fucked up. I am NOT pregnant."
Edward: "You are" I say almost certain. "and to prove it..." I purchased 3 tests while you were with Julie, I hand the bag to you.
Faith: I grab the bag and look in it. "Will you give me everything back once you see I'm not?" I ask, extremely pissed off.
Edward: “if in fact you are not, you can go purchase whatever you wish..." I say knowing I destroyed your last supply.
Faith: "Fine," I say turning toward the stairs. "You gonna come too or just trust what I tell you?" I ask with a smirk, knowing you won't believe me when I tell you I'm not pregnant.
Edward: I follow you. "I will be as close as you allow."
Faith: "Well, I'm not letting you watch me piss on it," I say sarcastically.
Edward: "Nor would I wish to." I say honestly. "I however know you are pregnant, so if they return negative I will be forced to take you in for a blood test." I say honestly
Faith: "What makes you so fucking sure?" I ask bitterly. I was planning to just run water over them because if I am, I honestly don't want to know, but dammit if you're not smart.
Edward: "I simply know." I say honestly "Would you rather forego this step and go straight to a doctor?"
Faith: "Whatever will get you off my back," I say honestly. "This is bullshit. There's no way I'm fucking pregnant."
Edward: I walk over to your closet and choose a shirt and a pair of jeans. “Put this on and we will go." I say moving towards the door.
Faith: I strip off Brandon's clothes and pull on the jeans and t-shirt, not bothering to wait until you leave. I pull on a pair of sneakers with no socks and follow you. "Let's get it over with then."
Edward: I stop you and look in your eyes. "Faith" I whisper "I only desire to care for you..I know that you don't wish to believe this, but it is the truth."
Faith: I look down at the carpet. "What am I supposed to do if it is? I can't raise a kid."
Edward: "You will have support from us all." I say honestly "I will remain by your side." I add.
Faith: I'm terrified that you might be right. Something inside me tells me that you are, but I can't believe it, not yet. "Okay, I guess we should find out which of us is right, huh?"
Edward: I kiss your cheek. "Let us go." I say having already made the arrangements knowing you would most likely prefer this route.
Faith: "Where are we gonna find a doctor on such short notice?" I ask, hoping one last time to avoid it.
Edward: "Already taken care of." I say simply
Faith: "Fucker," I say with a chuckle. "Shoulda known," I say as I follow you down the stairs.
Edward: "As I said, I only long to protect you."
Faith: "Can we at least take my bike?" I ask, knowing you hate motorcycles.
Edward: "No we can not" I say firmly "We are taking a sensible mode of transport for a woman in your condition."
Faith: I actually laugh at that. "In my condition? You are too much. Lead the way, Highlander."
Edward: I roll my eyes as I lead you to the car and help you in. "Yes, you are pregnant, for which I will soon prove."
Faith: I shake my head and roll my eyes, fastening my seat belt. "We'll see, maybe we should place a wager on it?"
Edward: "I do not believe in gambling" I say flatly
Faith: I pull my foot up to the seat of the chair and lean on my knee. "Got a bit of an issue, huh?"
Edward: "What do you mean?" I ask curious.
Faith: "Don't believe in gambling? Just figured that meant you've got a bit of a problem is all."
Edward: I shake my head. "Just don't understand why one would waste their money on something that isn't a guarantee.
Faith: "Ahh, I guess I get that. Gambling and bartering is about the only thing there is to do in prison, though," I say with a shrug. "Other than working out when they actually let us out in the yard."
Edward: I reach up and caress your cheek. "You truly have not had an easy life have you?" I ask
Faith: I shrug and hug my knee. "Lots of people have had it worse. Julie had it way worse," I say softly.
Edward: "Perhaps in ways she has, however you do not deserve the pain you have endured." I say honestly as I reach over and touch your cheek.
Faith: “Maybe," I say softly, looking out the windshield. "Thanks for believing it even if I can't."
Edward: "I always will." I say as I drive on to the doctor's office.
Faith: I stay silent the rest of the trip, watching as you pull in to the parking lot. "So, this is it, huh?"
Edward: "Yes dear" I whisper as I get out and hold your door open for you.
Faith: I take a deep breath to try to calm my nerves, following you into the office.
Edward: I hold you close as I tell the nurse that we were meeting the doctor as referred by Craig Gordon. She nods and tells us to sit and wait.
Faith: "You got Craig in on this?" I ask as I flop down in one of the chairs.
Edward: "He is the only medical professional I know of in this city."
Faith: "Oh, I guess that's a good point," I say, picking up a magazine from 1999.
Edward: "You aren't angry are you?" I ask worried you truly were
Faith: "Nah, I guess just anxious or something," I say softly, flipping the pages but not really seeing the pictures or the words.
Edward: I reach up and caress your head my fingers slowly running through your hair.
Faith: I sigh and lean over, resting my head on your shoulder. "I'm so tired," I admit.
Edward: "I know love" I whisper holding you close. "Just relax."
Faith: "I'll try," I say softly, staring across the waiting room, not really seeing anything.
Edward: I hold you close. "What do you desire most out of life?" I ask randomly
Faith: "To have a life, to believe I'm something worth loving," I answer without thinking. "I mean, uh, I don't know."
Edward: My heart breaks when you say that. "You have a life now darling, and you are most definitely worth loving."
Faith: I look down and fidget with the hem of my t-shirt. "Thanks," I whisper.
Edward: "you are welcome love." said as I lean over and kiss your cheek whispering to you. "I love you...you are an amazing woman, and I long to see where your life leads you."
Faith: “I hope you're not disappointed in me when I fuck up then because I can pretty much guarantee you I will at some point."
Edward: "That is a part of being human Faith."
Faith: "Yeah, guess that's true," I say softly. "How much longer are we gonna have to wait?" I ask, my knee jerking up and down in nervousness.
Edward: Just as I was about to answer you, the doctor appeared. "I would say not that long" I say pointing to her.
Faith: I look up and swallow hard. "So, uh, you gonna come with me?" I ask, unsure if you'd want to or really if it'd be appropriate.
Edward: "Do you wish me to?" I ask
Faith: I shrug as I stand up. "S'up to you."
Edward: I stand up and make you look at me. "What do you want?"
Faith: I frown and look away. "I don't know, just do whatever you want," I say honestly. I don't think I have the capacity right now to make any kind of decision.
Edward: I take your hand in mine. "Then I will remain by your side."
Faith: I grip your hand tighter than I intend to, secretly glad you don't want to make me do this alone. "Okay then."
Edward: I smile as we follow the doctor in. She leads us to a room that has a curtained off cove like area for her to change. "I believe you are to change into a gown in there." I suggest as the doctor leaves the room.
Faith: I look at you like you're crazy. "I thought you said we just had to have blood work done. They're not going to be looking all up in my business, are they?"
Edward: "I don't know dear...it would make sense for you to have a full check up, however if you only wish to have blood drawn I can request that."
Faith: "Oh," I say softly. "I haven't been to the doctor in a long damn time, it's a thing," I admit with a shrug.
Edward: "Why?" I ask confused
Faith: "Uh, why what?"
Edward: "Why haven't you been to the doctor in a long time?"
Faith: I shrug. "Slayers don't exactly have medical benefits. I wouldn't let the docs on the inside touch me, they knew I never got hurt anyway. The last time I went to the doctor was when I got a broken arm as a kid. Well, there was the whole coma thing, I figure they probably did all sorts of nasty poking and prodding when I was out."
Edward: "Then would you object to a full exam?" I ask
Faith: I shrug. "You think I need one?"
Edward: "I think it would be wise." I say honestly
Faith: "Why?" I ask, not really understanding the need for it. I am a Slayer after all.
Edward: "It is a wise thing to do, especially since you are pregnant." I say knowing you are.
Faith: I give you a look that could kill. "Edward, we don't know that I'm pregnant. But fine. You're a pain in my ass."
Edward: "And yet you love me just the same." I say with a smile "And I know you are."
Faith: "Yeah yeah yeah," I say, giving you a small smile. "What are you, like the baby whisperer or some shit?"
Edward: “No, I just know what happens with women when they are pregnant." I say as I look away.
Faith: "Oh yeah? And what's that?" I ask, skeptical that I could be displaying any so called symptoms.
Edward: "How long have you been ill?" I ask "And has it been constant or only at certain times?"
Faith: "I dunno, a couple of weeks or something? And no, it's just kind of random. What's that got to do with it?"
Edward: "Its what they title as morning sickness, though that isn't the only time it hits..." I say honestly "How about any tenderness?"
Faith: "What do you mean, tenderness?" I feel like such an idiot. It's times like these when I wish I actually went to school.
Edward: I nervously respond "In your breasts...or anywhere else."
Faith: "Oh. Uh, yeah, some," I say, blushing a bit.
Edward: "Need I continue?"
Faith: "I'd be glad if you didn't," I say with a chuckle.
Edward: I nod and look away. "I am sorry if I have upset you, I just know this is in fact what is happening."
Faith: "It's okay," I say softly. "I'll go put the gown on," I say as I walk behind the curtain, stripping off my clothes and putting the thin gown on. I reach behind me but can't work the ties. "Will you tie me up, please?" I ask, peeking around the curtain.
Edward: I nod "Yes, I will." I say softly memories flooding my head as you ask that.
Faith: I turn around and let you tie the gown, then hopping up on the bed. "You okay?" I ask.
Edward: I shake it off as I tie your gown. "Yes, I am fine." I lie.
Faith: "You're a worse liar than I am, Edward," I say, cocking my eyebrow at you.
Edward: "I do not know what you mean."
Faith: "Yeah, okay," I say, rolling my eyes.
Edward: "are you rolling your eyes at me?"
Faith: "Little bit," I say. "You drag me here, insisting that I'm pregnant, and you won't even open up about whatever's bothering you," I say with a shrug.
Edward: I sigh, "It is something I don't think I am ready to talk about."
Faith: "I get that," I say softly. "I really do. But, ya know, if you want to later, I'm not good on the advice front, but I'm a decent listener."
Edward: “You remind me so much of..." I look away. "Someone I once knew."
Faith: "People generally think it's a bad thing when I remind them of someone. Who was it?" I ask softly, giving you the opportunity to tell me, but not about to push.
Edward: I shake my head. "I..I will tell you, I promise, I just can't here."
Faith: "Okay. I mean, it's no big, just wanted to let ya know you could," I say with a shrug.
Edward: "I..I will." I say honestly as my eyes meet yours, mine filled with pain.
Faith: I lean over and hug you awkwardly, I'm not used to doing stuff like this but it seems appropriate. "You don't have to stay in here with me, I'm not gonna run."
Edward: "I wouldn't want to be anywhere else." I say honestly
Faith: "Okay then," I say softly, sitting back up on the bed. "What the hell is taking them so long?"
Doctor: "Hello Ms Lehane." I say with a smile. "I do apologize for keeping you waiting."
Edward: I am thrilled the doctor came in, I need a moment to gather my emotions.
Faith: I let out a held breath as I see a woman doctor come in. "S'all right," I say. "He's the one that made me come anyway," I say, nodding at you.
Edward: I roll my eyes and give you a look.
Doctor: "He is just concerned as apparently Dr Gordon is as well." I say honestly "Why don't we start with a simple exam and then I will draw blood."
Faith: "I guess that'd be okay," I say nervously.
Edward: "Just relax Faith,” I whisper
Doctor: "This is your decision Ms Lehane, if you do not wish for me to examine you, I won't."
Faith: "Just Faith, okay? And it's okay, I'll, um, I'll let you."
Doctor: "Alright...Faith." I say with a smile "Please lay back and relax."
Faith: “Okay," I say as I lay back, keeping my legs tightly together. "I'll try to relax, but I can't make any promises," I say honestly.
Edward: I move to Faith's side and take her hand. "Relax" I whisper
Doctor: "Faith, if you can please place your feet in the stirrups, I will be finished quickly."
Faith: I grip your hand tightly and do as she asks, forcing myself to take slow, deep breaths. "Like that?" I ask as I put my heels in them. I've never done this before.
Doctor: I place a calming hand on her leg. "Yes, you are doing well."
Edward: "I am here Faith." I whisper.
Faith: I nod and bite my lip, my eyes closed. I hate feeling this way, so vulnerable and exposed and scared. I don't even know exactly what I'm afraid of, but I can't help it.
Doctor: I make sure to finish my exam quickly but thoroughly. "Alright dear, you can sit up and I will take your blood."
Faith: I let out a held breath and sit up, still not letting go of your hand. "Thanks," I say softly. "That wasn't so bad."
Doctor: "I will take that as a compliment" I say with a smile.
Edward: "You ok Faith?" I ask worried.
Faith: I try to keep my hands from shaking and nod. "Yeah, I'm okay."
Edward: I caress your head as the doctor takes your blood then leaves the room.
Faith: "That was fun," I say sarcastically.
Edward: "relax darling." I whisper
Faith: I take several deep breaths and swallow a few times. "Sorry, I've just never had to do that before. Thanks for not leaving, don't know if I could have done it alone," I admit.
Edward: "I wouldn't dare leave your side when you need me."
Faith: "Thank you," I say softly. "I'm glad you're here," I whisper even as tears well up in my eyes. It should be Brandon here with me.
Edward: I kiss your forehead. "I know you are hurting, this will be over soon."
Faith: I lean against you, wiping my tears on your shirt. "She was really gentle, it doesn't hurt."
Edward: "I meant emotional pain darling" I say as I caress your head. "If you want you can get dressed now."
Faith: "Oh," I say softly. "Yeah, I'd feel better in my own clothes," I admit. "Untie me?"
Edward: I chuckle "Yes I will.." I say as I release the ties from the back of your gown.
Faith: "Thanks," I say, holding the gown shut so you don't see my bare ass. "Uh, I'm gonna get dressed now," I say, sliding off the bed.
Edward: "I think that would be wise." I say as I turn so you can walk into the room and change.
Faith: I walk back behind the curtain and slip back into my jeans, placing my hands over my stomach before I fasten them. Is it really possible there's a whole other person inside there? I shake my head and fasten my jeans, pulling on my shirt as I walk back out and sit down in one of the chairs. "Sitting on the bed makes me nervous," I explain.
Edward: "I believe you have done enough dear." I say softly with a smile. "Why don't I take you somewhere to relax once we leave here..."
Faith: I look over at you, my fingers playing with the seams in my jeans. "Whatcha got in mind?" I ask.
Edward: "Possibly procuring some sandwiches and sit on the beach." I say softly
Faith: "That sounds cool," I say. "I haven't been to the beach since... Well, it's been a while."
Edward: "Then that is what we will do." I say just as the doctor returned and in her hands held your results.
Faith: I sit up straight in my chair, my knee starting to jerk again. "So, am I dying?" I ask, trying to be funny.
Doctor: "I believe you will make an amazing mother,” I say as I hand her the information about proper treatment for her pregnancy.
Faith: I take the papers and then drop them, my mouth dropping open. "Please tell me you're kidding," I beg, leaning down to pick them up.
Doctor: "I am not joking." I say simply "I can arrange for someone to talk to if you need it."
Faith: I fumble with the papers, looking over at you. "I... No, I just... Fuck, I've never been here before," I ramble, not making any sense to myself.
Edward: "Faith, calm down" I say holding her close. "Thank you Doctor. I will make arrangements for anything more she needs."
Faith: "Yeah, thanks," I say softly, looking absently at the papers. "Guess it's a good thing I didn't bet you, isn't it?"
Edward: "Now do you understand why I do not gamble" I say with a small smile. "I will help you in whatever way you need darling, you will not be alone."
Faith: "Edward, what am I going to do?" I ask, tears streaming down my face. "I mean, I don't know if I can do this, I can't be a mother, much less a mom."
Edward: "Yes you can" I say as I kneel in front of you. "You are an amazing woman, you are a loving person, you will do well as a mother."
Faith: "Maybe I'll just give it a couple of days before I decide what to do," I say softly, trying to pull myself together. "Thanks though."
Edward: "What do you mean?"
Faith: I shrug. "I just don't know what I'm gonna do yet," I say as I fold the papers, shoving them into my back pocket.
Edward: "Faith" I say almost to the point of tears "If you are considering terminating, please don't...if you don't wish to raise the child I will, but please do not terminate." I say almost pleading.
Faith: I'm surprised by your reaction and lean back in the chair. "Didn't say I was going to, just said I'd think for a few days about my options," I say defensively.
Edward: I have to keep myself from begging you not to do this. I don't want to take your choices from you. "I believe we need to take you to get something to eat..."
Faith: "Hey, you okay?" I ask, frowning. I've never seen you like this before.
Edward: "You were right, you have some thinking to do. I should make sure though that you are well fed and safe..." I say as I open the door.
Faith: I look at you, trying to read your mood. "Okay," I say as I walk through it. "So, beach or no?"
Edward: "Yes, the beach." I say as I lead you to the car.
Faith: I climb into the car and fasten my seat belt, I hate wearing them but I figure you'll tell me to anyway. "Beach sounds good," I say softly, wishing I had a cigarette.
Edward: "I need to make one stop before we get lunch alright?" I ask and without waiting I head to a shop on Alameda. "Please wait here." I say and head inside.
Faith: "Uh, okay," I say as you walk into the store, not even waiting for my answer. I shrug and turn on the radio, changing it to a rock station.
Edward: After about 20 minutes I come back out and in my hand is a small bag, inside is herbal tea as well as a box with a bracelet in it.
Faith: I have my foot up against the dashboard, about to come find you when you walk out. "Dude, I was about to send out a search party," I say.
Edward: I climb into the car and head to the sandwich shop. "Sorry to have worried you."
Faith: "No worries, just gettin' bored. What did you have to pick up that took you so long?"
Edward: "It is just something that will be needed." I say vaguely.
Faith: "Is cryptic talk like a class in Watcher school or something?" I ask as I shake my head at you.
Edward: I smile a bit "Is impatience something Slayers learn?" I ask biting back
Faith: “Ouch," I say, dramatically placing my hand on my chest.
Edward: "Ahh yes, and what a drama queen you are."
Faith: "Now that's one thing I've never been called before," I say with a small chuckle.
Edward: "And now you have." I say and drive through ordering our sandwiches then once we have them I head to the beach, smacking your hand each time you try to reach for the bag from the shop.
Faith: "Geez," I say, finally giving up on the bag. "You're so mean," I tease.
Edward: "That I am." I say as I park in front of a small house along a private beach.
Faith: "Where are we?" I ask, noticing this isn't a normal public beach.
Edward: "A friend of mine owns this house, he said we can have full access to the beach if we so chose. I figured you would want privacy."
Faith: I look over at you, giving you a thankful smile. "You're right. You're so damn thoughtful."
Edward: "Anything for you." I say honestly and lead you down to the beach, the bags in my hand as well as two towels from my trunk.
Faith: "You want me to carry some of that?" I ask, kicking off my shoes as we reach the sand, carrying them as the warm sand squishes between my toes.
Edward: "No, but nice attempt" I say with a smile knowing you want to know what’s in the bag.
Faith: I roll my eyes, "I wasn't even thinking that, I could carry the other one," I say with a chuckle.
Edward: "Its alright dear, just relax." I say honestly
Faith: "I'm just not used to this, I guess," I say as I shrug, heading out more near the water.
Edward: "What?" I ask, "Not used to what?"
Faith: "Someone being nice to me and not wanting to fuck me," I say softly.
Edward: "As I do not believe in incest, I couldn't bring myself to want that from you." I say honestly.
Faith: I turn and look at you. "You're serious, aren't you?"
Edward: "What do you mean?"
Faith: "You seriously have no desire to sleep with me," I say, looking at you.
Edward: "You are like my daughter, I wouldn't dream of doing such a thing with you."
Faith: I shrug, "Didn't stop my father," I say honestly.
Edward: "That doesn't make it right Faith." I say as I hug you. "I want to show you the true meaning of a father."
Faith: I wrap my arms around your waist and lean into the hug. "Thanks," I say softly.
Edward: "Only the best for you." I say honestly. "Have you ever wondered why I am so protective of you?"
Faith: “All the time," I say honestly. "Never understood it."
Edward: I help you sit down on the blanket I brought. "Then allow me to explain."
Faith: I sit down and cross my legs, looking out over the water. "I'm all ears."
Edward: "Would you believe I was once Married?" I ask as I sit down facing you.
Faith: I look up into your eyes. "Actually, I would. You're a pretty good guy. Why aren't you married anymore?"
Edward: "My wife and 5 year old daughter were killed." I say flatly
Faith: "Oh my god," I say softly, placing my hand on yours.
Edward: "She would be 15 now, and my wife who had just informed me she was pregnant, we would have had another child that would be 10."
Faith: I shake my head. "I'm sorry. That's crazy. I remind you of her?"
Edward: "You are what I would have imagined her to be." I say honestly "That is why I became irrational in the doctors office...I apologize."
Faith: "Wait, you mean your daughter? I thought you meant your wife," I say softly.
Edward: I shake my head "No, I am sorry..."
Faith: "No, no, nothing to be sorry for, I just didn't understand. Why would you imagine her to grow up like me?" I ask in wonder. I'm not exactly a role model.
Edward: "Strong and certain of herself." I say softly
Faith: "Oh," I say softly, taking your hand in mine. "That's a huge compliment, Edward."
Edward: "It is simply the truth." I say with a smile.
Faith: "So, you kinda freaked out at the hospital because you view this baby like it will be your grandchild?" I ask softly, terrified to think that I actually am pregnant.
Edward: "I view the baby as simply a baby, for I am too young to be a grandfather." I joke.
Faith: I look up at you with a cocked eyebrow. "So, if I give it up for adoption or do something else, you're not gonna have a bitch fit?"
Edward: "May I make a request?" I ask
Faith: "You can ask," I say softly.
Edward: "Would you allow me to raise your baby if you chose not to?" I ask suddenly pleading again.
Faith: "You mean you don't want me to have an abortion," I say bluntly.
Edward: "No" I say honestly "I don't wish to take your choices from you, but I can't help but want to protect the baby as well."
Faith: "It's not even a baby yet," I say, not really believing it myself.
Edward: "From the moment you conceived the baby is a baby." I say not longing to fight this.