Hmmmm
I don't know. What am I doing here? It is Christmas today. I got presents. Money, socks (which I might add are FURRY!), make-up, my laptop that i wanted, chocolates, a music dvd. Im not ungrateful. I am happy but I am also kind of numb. I got another, not so nice...no well more I knew what it was but I had forgotten about it and when I got it it kind of shocked me...a kind of return present I guess. It was a bracelet, a special one. It meant something and to get it back meant something too. When we are faced with a future that is totally opposite from the past, especially when other people are involved, if the future with those people would be awkward, we try to forget the past, to make it less awkward. To move on. That was what it was, a moving on present. It didn't hurt to get it back. It was what was needed to be done. I am ok with it. I am moving on too. Slowly. Putting all of it behind me. Walking down the path a bit more, the long winding path that is my life. And I am walking on my own, doing it on my own. I am proud. That was my Christmas present to myself I think. The fact that I am starting to move on. I am happy. So with that, Merry Christmas. Thankyou all for being there for me and I wish you all the happiness of the day.
Lots of love
Lots of love