i couldve held you in my arms forever
so im pretty sure ive been avoiding a real update. im afraid. im afraid that if i start to take anything too seriously ill lose control over the part of life i seem to have control over. im doing really bad (for me anyways) in english just because i dont care enough to try. i mean, its english class! jeez. i dont really care about grades in algebra or chem either but i seem to be able to pull off 99s on tests i dont study for so im not that worried.
im taking a class at smcc because i want to explore what i might be interested in doing for the rest of my life. i said no to swimming with my sister today because i had nothing to get off of my mind because i havent been thinking about anything too thoroughly lately. ive been avoiding thinking. i dont think before i say something, i dont think after i say something, or do something, i just let it pass.
i start working at cvs next week. i turned down the cookie jar job because i didnt like the lady that worked there. truth is, i liked not having a job. i liked having time on the weekends to play basketball and dress up in wills clothes or have a seinfeld party or a halo tournament. i liked saying "i feel like going to the mall today" and then doing it. i dont want to rearrange my schedule for someone else. i need cash, but really..i mean i dont really need it..i get an allowance that has held me over. i got cash back from taxes and money back from my yearbook..and from my dad...
i feel like crashing.
im taking a class at smcc because i want to explore what i might be interested in doing for the rest of my life. i said no to swimming with my sister today because i had nothing to get off of my mind because i havent been thinking about anything too thoroughly lately. ive been avoiding thinking. i dont think before i say something, i dont think after i say something, or do something, i just let it pass.
i start working at cvs next week. i turned down the cookie jar job because i didnt like the lady that worked there. truth is, i liked not having a job. i liked having time on the weekends to play basketball and dress up in wills clothes or have a seinfeld party or a halo tournament. i liked saying "i feel like going to the mall today" and then doing it. i dont want to rearrange my schedule for someone else. i need cash, but really..i mean i dont really need it..i get an allowance that has held me over. i got cash back from taxes and money back from my yearbook..and from my dad...
i feel like crashing.