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My break at home was so great. I really didn't want to come back to Mt. Pleasant at all. I love my friends so much. Ryan Brown came home from AZ so all of us spent a lot of time together having a blast as usual. Veronica was in the Phillipines so I missed her a lot, but I did get to see her a little bit before I came back to school. She's the greatest. I must say, I am really lucky to have all the great friends that I do. I mean, there's Veronica who is one of those people you can't help but love, Stephanie (blonde) who is just so fun and supportive that can talk your ear off, Kelly who is my "rock" (I don't know what I'd do in Mt. Pleasant without her here), Steph who's forever away in Georgia, but still the greatest friend there is with her silliness, great heart and her ability to be such a bad influence on me in a good way, Anna who I have known since she moved to America - with whom I've always had a really strong connection - we always know what the other is thinking and feeling, Stephanie (redhead) who is such a great friend that I can talk to about anything and know that she understands, Cheryl who I miss dearly but still feel like she knows the "real" me... lol if that makes sense, Ryan Brown is forever away in AZ but I know for a fact that we'll be friends forever - he promised me on New Year's! I'm just lucky to have such great friends... not everyone is as lucky as I am. Plus, I could always get into my amazing family... but I won't. haha
So, classes start tomorrow and I'm sitting here thinking about things. I'm so confused. I'm stressed out about some things, pissed off at myself for other reasons and just so unsure of what to do next. Sometimes I feel like I should just give up because nothing I'm doing is really doing any good. So I don't know what to do. I feel like I work hard and everything, but it's just not paying off... I'm not as focused as I want to be. I guess there's nothing I can do about my past mistakes or problems... all I can do is work on the future and I'm staying focused - REALLY focused this semester. I have 8AM classes Monday, Wednesday and Friday plus on Tuesday or Thursday I'll have Midtier from 8-12. Saturdays I work from 9-2 and Sundays 10-4 at the Fairfield Inn. I've only worked 3 days so far, but I think I'll do ok, it's going to be tough though. Anyway, real early in the morning, I'm going to work out with Kelly tomorrow - 6AM, so I best be getting myself ready for bed. I'm kind of nervous for my new classes. What can I do though? Things will work out... things will work out... things will work out...
I'll just keep telling myself that.
So, classes start tomorrow and I'm sitting here thinking about things. I'm so confused. I'm stressed out about some things, pissed off at myself for other reasons and just so unsure of what to do next. Sometimes I feel like I should just give up because nothing I'm doing is really doing any good. So I don't know what to do. I feel like I work hard and everything, but it's just not paying off... I'm not as focused as I want to be. I guess there's nothing I can do about my past mistakes or problems... all I can do is work on the future and I'm staying focused - REALLY focused this semester. I have 8AM classes Monday, Wednesday and Friday plus on Tuesday or Thursday I'll have Midtier from 8-12. Saturdays I work from 9-2 and Sundays 10-4 at the Fairfield Inn. I've only worked 3 days so far, but I think I'll do ok, it's going to be tough though. Anyway, real early in the morning, I'm going to work out with Kelly tomorrow - 6AM, so I best be getting myself ready for bed. I'm kind of nervous for my new classes. What can I do though? Things will work out... things will work out... things will work out...
I'll just keep telling myself that.