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F- you Johnathan Paul Welliver.
In other news, I realized this evening in the shower that all is well - as in, no post shower emotional breakdowns seem imminent. Considering we are now coming into the 5th year since the incident, I think it's about time. I remember when I was a freshman and first at college and even though I lived in suites, it was enough like a public (i.e. not my home or Emy or Emma's houses) shower that I couldn't use it and had to get my Aunt to come take me out to her house a couple times a week to get clean. I remember when I started to become close friends with Brianna and she would sit on the sink reading out of a book to me while I was in the shower to keep me focused and PTSD free.... That was actually the nice thing I can point to that she gave me... I drove home to shower at Messiah almost all the time, and last year I had my own private bathroom. In any case, two weeks being here and I haven't avoided showering or taken to washing my hair in the sink, so I'm making this as a big-time victory.
In other other news, I am resolving to care not quite so much about club activities - by which I mean not getting so worked up about them. Even though I really really want to do everything right.
unrelated: I sense some anger management counseling in my near future
In other news, I realized this evening in the shower that all is well - as in, no post shower emotional breakdowns seem imminent. Considering we are now coming into the 5th year since the incident, I think it's about time. I remember when I was a freshman and first at college and even though I lived in suites, it was enough like a public (i.e. not my home or Emy or Emma's houses) shower that I couldn't use it and had to get my Aunt to come take me out to her house a couple times a week to get clean. I remember when I started to become close friends with Brianna and she would sit on the sink reading out of a book to me while I was in the shower to keep me focused and PTSD free.... That was actually the nice thing I can point to that she gave me... I drove home to shower at Messiah almost all the time, and last year I had my own private bathroom. In any case, two weeks being here and I haven't avoided showering or taken to washing my hair in the sink, so I'm making this as a big-time victory.
In other other news, I am resolving to care not quite so much about club activities - by which I mean not getting so worked up about them. Even though I really really want to do everything right.
unrelated: I sense some anger management counseling in my near future