Got some news for you... come closer this is a secret that needs to be whispered... Ready?
YOU'RE A TEENAGER! YOU ARE PERFECTLY NORMAL! EVERYONE GOES THROUGH THE SAME THOUGHTS HURTS AND EMOTIONS! YOU ARE IN GOOD COMPANY FOR YOU HAVE MANY FRIENDS (ME INCLUDED) THAT THINK YOU ARE A VERY AWESOME PERSON!!!!!
Just wanted to make sure you read that! :) Seriously though you are still going through a lot of teenage agnst and much of that will fade in time. The rest of it has a lot to do with family issues and the fact that you are a sencitive person and when someone speaks ill of you (like a family member) you take it to heart even though they may have said it flipantly and meant nothing by it. I'm the same way, my family says they have to walk on eggshells around me but it's not true. Even knowing how my depression makes me sencitive to things they say they still haven't learned how to be considerate of my feelings. I've just learned to except the fact that they just lack the ability to understand how it is for me so I just try and avoid them in certian circimstances that I know will have a negative outcome. The rest is quite simply depression and that can make even the greatest of people doubt and hate themselves. Look for an on campus councellor or perhaps a support group. It always helps to know you arn't going through things alone. :)
I know, I know... you tell me this all the time. Everyone does... but I can't help but feel like it's so much more than that. There aren't many depressed people I know who daydream about being raped and hanging themselves in their roomates closet.
See?
And I hurt people. People I'm supposed to love and care about. I mean hurt mentally, emotionally... I confuse them because sometimes I love them sometimes I hate them...
*shakes head* I could go to the therapist here but she scares me. Maybe I will go anyway... just not now.
YOU'RE A TEENAGER! YOU ARE PERFECTLY NORMAL! EVERYONE GOES THROUGH THE SAME THOUGHTS HURTS AND EMOTIONS! YOU ARE IN GOOD COMPANY FOR YOU HAVE MANY FRIENDS (ME INCLUDED) THAT THINK YOU ARE A VERY AWESOME PERSON!!!!!
Just wanted to make sure you read that! :) Seriously though you are still going through a lot of teenage agnst and much of that will fade in time. The rest of it has a lot to do with family issues and the fact that you are a sencitive person and when someone speaks ill of you (like a family member) you take it to heart even though they may have said it flipantly and meant nothing by it. I'm the same way, my family says they have to walk on eggshells around me but it's not true. Even knowing how my depression makes me sencitive to things they say they still haven't learned how to be considerate of my feelings. I've just learned to except the fact that they just lack the ability to understand how it is for me so I just try and avoid them in certian circimstances that I know will have a negative outcome.
The rest is quite simply depression and that can make even the greatest of people doubt and hate themselves. Look for an on campus councellor or perhaps a support group. It always helps to know you arn't going through things alone. :)
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See?
And I hurt people. People I'm supposed to love and care about. I mean hurt mentally, emotionally...
I confuse them because sometimes I love them sometimes I hate them...
*shakes head* I could go to the therapist here but she scares me. Maybe I will go anyway... just not now.
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