Time for a serious update. Seriously.
I got my AP Psych test results back. I got a 4. That means I'm better than average but I'm not a flippin' genius. Mrs. A totally lied. She said I'd get a 5.
Anyway... this weekend... pretty much sucked. The best part was spending most of Saturday with Hannah. We went shopping, got her an aquarium. Set it up. Got some fish... hella interesting fish. Upside down Catfish. I kid you not. These crazy mofos swim upside down. Unfortunately, hours later they were both passed away. She was angry, but at least there was a full refund in case that happened.
Umm... then we went grocery shopping and we ate some Chicken pasta salad thing. For a pregnant lady, I thought she should eat more... but anyway...
we watched some Aqua Teen Hunger Force (Season III DVD baby!) and then went to the carnival. It was lame... Pat was there and he grabbed my butt. Cos he's a nerdtr0n.
We walked around for a bit and then she felt sick so we went home. I took a shower cos I was all sorts of dirty... and that's it. Yesterday I helped Mom with lame crafts for Vacation Bible School. I hope they don't try making me go to help or go to the teen class. I will just sit there and do nothing but hold back tears if they make me go.
Yeah... at least I only have to deal with church for three more weeks than I'm free to be whatever... Good.
You know what? I can feel that I'm sinking into this depression more again. I always feel like it's so bad then it just gets worse and I look back and think, "Oh man, it wasn't so bad before..."
I just feel so empty and careless.
I'm not doing anything and it seems like I only get any remotely good feeling whilst on the internet or watching TV. Nothing in my life interests me. I don't feel good about anything I'm doing. My relationships get on my nerves. I'm avoiding my friends but at the same time, I want to see some of them becos soon this will be over and I'll never see them before I know it...
I just feel like the fact that I'm doing nothing is driving me crazy. I'm not even sleeping or eating anymore.
I mean, I sleep and eat a little... but not like I should. And I can't seem to make myself.
I thought about erasing this entry but said fcuk it.
Anyway... this weekend... pretty much sucked. The best part was spending most of Saturday with Hannah. We went shopping, got her an aquarium. Set it up. Got some fish... hella interesting fish. Upside down Catfish. I kid you not. These crazy mofos swim upside down. Unfortunately, hours later they were both passed away. She was angry, but at least there was a full refund in case that happened.
Umm... then we went grocery shopping and we ate some Chicken pasta salad thing. For a pregnant lady, I thought she should eat more... but anyway...
we watched some Aqua Teen Hunger Force (Season III DVD baby!) and then went to the carnival. It was lame... Pat was there and he grabbed my butt. Cos he's a nerdtr0n.
We walked around for a bit and then she felt sick so we went home. I took a shower cos I was all sorts of dirty... and that's it. Yesterday I helped Mom with lame crafts for Vacation Bible School. I hope they don't try making me go to help or go to the teen class. I will just sit there and do nothing but hold back tears if they make me go.
Yeah... at least I only have to deal with church for three more weeks than I'm free to be whatever... Good.
You know what? I can feel that I'm sinking into this depression more again. I always feel like it's so bad then it just gets worse and I look back and think, "Oh man, it wasn't so bad before..."
I just feel so empty and careless.
I'm not doing anything and it seems like I only get any remotely good feeling whilst on the internet or watching TV. Nothing in my life interests me. I don't feel good about anything I'm doing. My relationships get on my nerves. I'm avoiding my friends but at the same time, I want to see some of them becos soon this will be over and I'll never see them before I know it...
I just feel like the fact that I'm doing nothing is driving me crazy. I'm not even sleeping or eating anymore.
I mean, I sleep and eat a little... but not like I should. And I can't seem to make myself.
I thought about erasing this entry but said fcuk it.