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Why is it, that a stupid rainy day can just drain your energy and mold your mood into something almost sickening? Well to be fair to mother nature, its not COMPLETELY HER FAULT (although she deserves some blame), since the moods must be lying dormant somewhere to surface eventually. On my way home from the rockport I had to wait an hour for the train and a group of people were waiting too. They were all talking and introducing themselves to eachother and I hesitated to take part. And a nice old man was so eager to talk to everyone. I wanted to sit in peace and read my book. Then i saw him at north station again and he was saying goodbye to one of the girls. I turned my head and avoided him. Then I felt low. I felt bad that I didn't want to even expend any of my energy to him. I had so little of my own to use up anyways. Selfish? Maybe, but isn't that we all do in life? Try to do things or avoid things so that we can feel better or content?
Ive reconnected with an old friend, and after a few encounters I think I have just come to realize that they are not intellectually fufilling to me anymore. As I was with them today i realized as I watched them shop and talk, that had it not been for the fact that I used to be close with them many years ago, I would not consider this person someone I would hang out with in the present day. Its a little disappointing to say the least.
But I will say on a more positive note, I had a lovely time on the fourth spending my day with my family on the boat....
and now I am watching a documentary on Crank.
Ive reconnected with an old friend, and after a few encounters I think I have just come to realize that they are not intellectually fufilling to me anymore. As I was with them today i realized as I watched them shop and talk, that had it not been for the fact that I used to be close with them many years ago, I would not consider this person someone I would hang out with in the present day. Its a little disappointing to say the least.
But I will say on a more positive note, I had a lovely time on the fourth spending my day with my family on the boat....
and now I am watching a documentary on Crank.