Jan 27, 2010 23:45
Invasion! Panic! Your little existance is being threatened by someone else who wants to take everything you and your community knows.
Do you stay and fight or run like hell?
Life has been a road of many ills, and pain. I have traveled on said road for many moons now, but it never seems enough. There is a constant war inside of me between good and evil. One that I cannot seem to win, no matter what I do. I have been the driving force for one too many departures, and all of them have led me to believe that it is my time to go. The person inside of me, this evil, this being is much stronger than I give her credit for, and the longer we are together, and alive, the more I realize that it is my time to take her and go. The fight to save my baby, save myself, save my love, save my everything has come to pass, and I failed. She won, and I can no longer be a slave to her whims, her fancies.
I walk away in hopes to lead my daughter to a path of truth, and happiness. I walk away in hopes that I may stop hurting the only man I love. I walk away...there is nothing left to see here, just smoke. I welcome death, as I always have, but this time I welcome him on his terms.
msjanebrooks