Sacred Women
It's funny to me that in the past couple years, I have started to notice how many books (based on truths) divulge into the mindset that woman were once, in many different religions, considered precious, holy, and sacred. Obviously, our world has changed from that but it doesn't mean I have to change from believing that.
I have always considered my sexuality sacred. I have chosen wisely to upon whom I wish to expose myself fully. I however, also want to use what I have read to branch out this thought and gain more confidence in myself.
Confidence is something I have always had a hard time dealing with. I have always been told I am an attractive person. In the past 2 years, after losing 55 pounds, I should be able to stand more confidently. Look at what I have accomplished... and yet I still see it as not good enough. I have people telling me constantly that I am gorgeous. Strangers tell me I am gorgeous, and not once in a blue moon... I am regularly told this. So why can't I believe it? For the first time in my life, I feel like I have an attractive boyfriend. Someone who always turns me on physically as well as mentally. I, honestly, don't feel like I ever really had this before... and yet, I still feel like he will one day wake up and realize I am not as gorgeous as he has been telling me.
I have major body image issues, I have my whole life because my most of my whole life, I've been fat. If I am being honest with myself, I have also always dealt with some sort of eating disorder, most commonly being an emotional, overeater.
I want to learn to love myself. Who doesn't? I want something that consistently works... among trying to workout at least 6 times a week, in some capacity, I want to help myself understand these lessons from our world's past. I want to believe that in every respect, no matter who you are, you're size, shape, color, sexual orientation, or race that if you are woman, you are sacred.
Maybe this is a good thing and it just means reading more Paulo Coelho books! =)
Hopefully, my journey begins today and doesn't ever stop.
I have always considered my sexuality sacred. I have chosen wisely to upon whom I wish to expose myself fully. I however, also want to use what I have read to branch out this thought and gain more confidence in myself.
Confidence is something I have always had a hard time dealing with. I have always been told I am an attractive person. In the past 2 years, after losing 55 pounds, I should be able to stand more confidently. Look at what I have accomplished... and yet I still see it as not good enough. I have people telling me constantly that I am gorgeous. Strangers tell me I am gorgeous, and not once in a blue moon... I am regularly told this. So why can't I believe it? For the first time in my life, I feel like I have an attractive boyfriend. Someone who always turns me on physically as well as mentally. I, honestly, don't feel like I ever really had this before... and yet, I still feel like he will one day wake up and realize I am not as gorgeous as he has been telling me.
I have major body image issues, I have my whole life because my most of my whole life, I've been fat. If I am being honest with myself, I have also always dealt with some sort of eating disorder, most commonly being an emotional, overeater.
I want to learn to love myself. Who doesn't? I want something that consistently works... among trying to workout at least 6 times a week, in some capacity, I want to help myself understand these lessons from our world's past. I want to believe that in every respect, no matter who you are, you're size, shape, color, sexual orientation, or race that if you are woman, you are sacred.
Maybe this is a good thing and it just means reading more Paulo Coelho books! =)
Hopefully, my journey begins today and doesn't ever stop.