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I seriously don't know what I'm doing with my life. And I should really be getting on that. But I dunno what I want to do!! Ugh. There's just so much to do, and so many things that need to be done before I go, and AGHHH. I'm such a mess right now. I told my mom that I was failing life....and she said "Well, honey...kinda." Wow. I'm kinda scared to move back home, and she'll realize just how much I fuck up, and just how often I do it. She gets the major stuff......bad grades, $500 phone bills, and massive breakups. But she just doesn't realize how much I mess up. Which I feel like is all the time. I dunno........it's just like I have different groups of friends, and different schedules, and different people to deal with...and I act differently with all of them. Which, whatever, that's what I need to do. But when I go home, I feel like she doesn't know me anymore. Like, the way I talk, and act, and dress....I'm just different. That's normal, but she's my mom. She should be there through all of it and she can't be. And it's so weird, cuz I'll say something, and she just looks at me, like who are you? It kinda sucks, but at the same time it's good. I've gotten so outgoing, and I'm so less intimidated by people now. I can actually talk to her, and we are finally actually friends. *sigh* I hate being a grownup.
p.s. I still officially hate baseball. And mentioning the Cubs in a room full of guys just reminded me of that!!!
Another quotes from Alexis ( I swear, I don't take that much from her, but it's really funny):
Some guys are talking to a little boy, and they ask him what baseball team he likes. So the little boy says that he's a Cubs fan. One of the men asks him why, and the little boy says, "Cuz my dad is a Cubs fan and my mom is a Cubs fan."
So the man says, "Well, that's stupid. What if your dad was a drug dealer, and your mom was a hooker?" The little boy smiled and said, "Easy. I'd be a White Sox fan."