Laughter, 'cause it's funny.

[charliestark]

The people reading all this must think I'm bipolar.
But,
on Thursday,
when I had to hold you that closely
because your body was shaking
and you were terrified and traumatized,
on the verge of a panic attack
I knew I still really, really, really cared about you
in the wrong way ...
I'm on the verge of the teenage version of love.
It's because I realized you've had me since grade 4
the very moment I met you.
You planted your seed and it's grown into
the most gargantuan oak tree
with the sickest of branches
carrying the most shriveled of leaves.
I can't chop it down or replace it apparently.
I gave you all.
But I'll let him think that...
know that he means more to you than I do.
(I'm comparing, because you are. We've all been replaced)
And let it go, let it happen.
I want you to be happy.
Livi is right.
If you are happy,
I will try to be.
Please God, whatever, wherever you are
let this happen.
Get it over with, so i can stop feeling so anxious
waiting for the moment I cry harder than i have
since I thought my sister was leaving me.
Thanks.
I'll owe you one.