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I don't sleep well anymore. I usually go to bed at 5 AM and wake up at 10 AM. On most weekdays I am going to bed just as my parents are getting up for work. I used to sleep on a schedule that was more of a midnight to 8 AM cycle, but now it's all messed up. Which I guess isn't the only thing that is dysfunctional. I'm so angry and frustrated about so much that has been going on in my life. I try to not think about anything that has happened but of course every single thing reminds you of something...I feel like it has been a terrible break-up with a very close girlfriend, and there is absolutely no closure to anything. It's all just a mess. I know this is pathetic but it's a good day if I cry less than twice in a single day, and I'm really not a functioning human being at the moment. Functioning requires being able to go out and lead a normal life. Something I am really incapacitated at. I like laying in bed for hours at a time watching movies. But what I really want to figure out is when do I know to let it go? When to I try to move on?