I SWEAR JUST ONE MORE TIME!!!
It's been a while since I've written so I would like to vent... a lot. I hate where I work, it's full of hypocrites that wouldn't know how to motivate me if I was on speed. I just got out of a short relationship with a girl who is incredible good-looking, because I really wanted to be with this other girl who is amazing all around... but now, I feel as if I'm part of her game that I don't like playing. I'm in school but I'm not doing so well in math. I need to drop it or I might fail. And I want to join the military (Air Force) so I can get some discipline but then what about all that God's given me so far. I'm tired. I went to the showbread show last night and wasn't as extatic I as thought I would have been. It was okay, but not great, not like the last time they were in El Paso before they blew up the PA system. On saturday, I'm going to get my lip pierced, hopefully Eli will get one too, I can't wait to start looking hot. As if that's a problem. I really hate when girls play games. The statement "lets just be friends for now" irritates me so much. If they didn't want anything to do with that guy, they shouldn't have said yes to a date, they should say that they're attracted to em, and they should just start acting like adults that actually know what relationships need to have. None of this High School Bull Shit. You like him, then tell him... It's always a risk, but we need to live a little. Don't waste such a short period of time by always telling the person you like that you want to be friends. What happened to all those great endings in 50s movies. That wasn't hollywood, that's the way it was.